Update

Okay, so I know it has been a long time since I updated because I am so darn picky about my blog layout:) Lol, okay so am a procrastinator, but I need help with my problem, its such a sad story ......  Other than that, I thought I would write my first personal post. 

As some of you probably know, I am a freshmen in high school. Which actually translate into fresh meat for all the gorillas prowling around in the hallway. Everyday I would get squished in the hallway by senior fat Albert and tough toothpick. I was always late because of it and always told myself I would try harder, but being the lazy girl I am it did not happen. I knew it was time to change I knew I need to prepare by doing my worst enemy the SCHEDULE. I spent a couple minutes creating a schedule,but after a while I realized I was back watching a bunch of girls singing about taxis and owls hooting. So it did not work out....I dropped the idea and moved on. I then realized I need to get my life back on track , but even if I tried I would be hit by the thomas....if you know what I am saying. Which is hard to believe how much I left myself go....I knew I want to make friends , ok I have no clue where that came from.....I am a very confused person. I am thinking to redo my room again because it sucks right now because I don't like it at all. I need help so that's why I decided to ask for your help. Give me some advice from your freshman year. Please I am desperate......ok jk..jk.....I need a little, a small amount though. I have been reading up on some blogs lately I have loads of favorites, but I love Tsukari and Xiaxue because they are awesome and so much fun to read. Did you that Wendy(Xiaxue) is SINGAPORE'S BEST BLOGGER, her blog gets up to one million hits a week which is amazing, I love style she is also the queen of fake eyelashes. She is pregnant with a baby, she should name her Laila, if it is a girl(JK). I think she is so cool and she works very hard, I would love to meet her one day. My favorite video is when she was Disney princess with Michelle! I love Tsukari because her blog is so cute and she did the HTML OF HER ENTIRE WEBSITE! Pretty impressive for a sixteen year old and she has the cutest emoticons.  I also like..... well idk, I have been reading blogs lately instead of watching videos because I want to learn about the community as much as I can. I think reading blogs makes me feel much more intelligent than watching a video:P I also feel that YouTube has a hard marketing where as the more famous channels get more views and the other newbies are desperately getting subbies by says giveaway at 1,000, 500, 300, and even 100. When I first started watching macbarbie her first giveaway was at 6,500!  I am actually trying to become a better person overall like Bubz! Oooo... I know this off topic, but I have been reading this blog called Chocolawty, it is about healty desserts...LEGIT. I think it is great how hard she works. I also miss Kassica:( She has not updated her blog in days( but I have not in months...cough...cough). I really like her blog very interesting and she is the first friend I made blogging:), I also like the Peach Closet. Seems like I spend too much on this blog. I feel like I am at my lowest point because I feel back on my arabic reading lessons, my Japanese my school work and I am just tired. I am not depressed though...... I feel as if I don't want to do anything. I am hopping to change my room around and get a bigger desk and do some more make-up reviews. I have been realizing that I want a load of things like MAC products and Juicy, but it is not what will make me happy for a long time. There is something I want and I feel it when I talk about,(LOL), but I wish I could layback forget about  everything and watch movies the whole day...haaaaaaaa, I know one day I could just stand on a cliff, put my arms out like Celine Dion and stare off into the horizon . I hate to say it, but I am not doing my best and not succeeding because there is fear in the way of everything perfection, but it is out of reach. Anyways, I have a feeling what I want is something higher than grades, or materials, more like true happiness.  Anyways, I love you all, and have an awesome rest of Thursday and Friday:)  Till we meet againxoxo-Laila  P.S I really did not edit this because I was really speaking through my blog for once. I would go back and edit my mistakes, but this post is supposed to be layback and an update.P.S.S Sorry I jump around to much....Hope you still enjoy my life...?P.S.S.S- Sorry of this is too cornyP.S.S.S.S-Sorry for saying sorry to muchP.S.S.S.S.S- Ok that is enough;)