Pressure. It’s a mess. Sometimes we make too much of the things in life that can make us or break us. I decided to be true to myself in this thirty day challenge and remember that I am human and can make mistakes. It’s picking up the next day and telling myself I am going to continue and accept the challenge, regardless is what matters. I must be gentle with myself. The pressures of this life you know can cause you to face some Red Seas in life. Facing our ‘Red Sea Situations’ may seem like an insurmountable task, at times - but you can conquer them with God. Just depend upon His grace. And expect it.
So thought I thought about a million things to write about and had all this excitement, I did not write them down, but the energy was there. And I made it through yesterday with less sleep, but loads of excitement. (And for that, I am proud.) ;0)
So…the second night of the challenge I couldn’t sleep! I literally stayed up until almost two o’clock a.m. thinking of things to write about! Then, I get into Monday (which was yesterday), and I forget to blog! I had this issue going on and it stole my concentration, not to mention the fact I was fretting over a meeting I had after work and was wondering what I should talk about.
I was so fretful over it, I essentially was completely distracted and forgot to do what I love. All my creative energy was zapped in fretting over something I didn’t trust myself well to deliver. Well, the meeting turned out well. I decided to give myself permission to be vulnerable, and just begin talking. As the meeting begun, thoughts and ideas came to mind, and I had something to discuss for the next hour.
I really couldn’t understand the feeling I had the other night. It blew my mind, in fact. Why was I so excited about creating? And then I woke up this morning and figured it has something to do with what I read in Brene’ Brown’s book on “The Gift of Imperfection: Letting Go of Who you Think You’re Supposed to Be and Embrace Who You Are.” She said there is a writer by the name of William Plomer who says “Creativity is the power to connect the seemingly unconnected.”
Brene’ also reminded me that being creative is bringing something original to this earth is tapping into the meaning of who we are and how unique we really are. I love being original. I love the fact that God chose me to be me. That He had me in mind and decided he would create me. I mean, what was He thinking? Surely, he had to laugh or had creative energy in mind for how I would connect to this earth and what I would be and the lives I would influence. Maybe I wasn’t aware or my parents were not aware of my purpose at the age of four, or fourteen… but here I am. And surely, he must be proud of what He sees, because the closer I grow to Him, the more I see of Him, in me. One that inspires me the most about who I am, is that I am Me. And God made me and He has a plan for me in this world, and the discovery of finding me and finding out who I really am is the key to finding out the reason why I was made.
Isn’t it wonderful God wants to acknowledge us before angels? ( Luke 12: 8) I never knew there was such a scripture! I am grateful God wants to acknowledge me, period. Extremely thankful that through the written word, he has prompted me to find myself and also to help others do the same.
Luke 12:6-8 “”"What is the price of five sparrows–two copper coins? Yet God does not forget a single one of them. Andthe very hairs on your head are all numbered. So don’t be afraid; you are more valuable to God than a whole flock of sparrows. I tell you the truth, everyone who acknowledges me publicly here on earth, the Son of Man will also acknowledge in the presence of God’s angels.”
