The Sorrow of a (step) Grandmother

I thought my "end of the world" post was going to be my last post for the year. However, I need to blog about one more thing.
My Grandson was born this past week. He died the same day. We had known a lot about his problems a while ago and we were of course hoping for the best. Well, the little guy had little chance to live and he didn't make it.
We'd been preparing ourselves. My Stepdaughter and Stepson in law were preparing themselves also.We are very sad, but at the same time doing well. Although Hubby and I came home last night and today we're finding it hard to function today. At this point in our lives death is something we expect, because people die, but when it's a child, it's so foreign; so strange.
If you read this blog you usually know I somehow tie in my posts to weight loss. Well, believe it or not, this one will. While away for the three days visiting my Stepdaughter and Stepson in law at a children's hospital more than three hours away from the Capital Region, I came to a realization that I've been on a "culinary vacation".
Which means that I've realized that this being off the wagon is not a permanent thing. I also realized need to stop.
I've been wanting to get back in to the Weight Watchers state of mind, but that realization really was a moment of reckoning.
So, I'm still recovering from my health scare, but I am even more poised to get back on the wagon. Why not do it now? Well, in case you can't tell, I have a few more pressing issues right now, but after we bury my Grandson this coming week and I celebrate Christmas with my Plattsburgh family soon, I'm going be pretty well set up to be ready for life to get back to "normal". I plan on being back to 'normal' by the end of January.
Thank you for reading. 
(Rest in peace AMC)