We celebrated at my favorite pub. We drank Lambic (lam-beak) or (lam-bick), my favorite Belgian beer. We had my favorite flavor, framboise, which is raspberry in French. We had the big wine bottle size, so we shared it. I'm not a big drinker and I don't hold my liquor very well. I actually drank about twice what I had at Christmas and New Year's. My husband and AJ kept insinuating I was drunk and of course I denied it every time. I was feeling pretty good. I had a case of the giggles, that's for sure.
So you've been waiting to see them. Well, at least I have. So here they are, the 50/100 lb pictures:
When I got home Friday night I was comparing my before WW pictures (that were taken 54.8 lbs ago) to the 50/100 pictures in the camera and I didn't see a difference. I was so disappointed. I went to "point up" and I opened my food tracker on the WW official site. I always love looking at the E-tools on WW's website. However, looking at them that night really hurt. It reminded me of how hard I'd worked. Since I didn't see any difference in my before WW pictures compared to my 50/100 pictures, It really upset me. I said "I give up!" and slammed my laptop closed without turning it off for the night, which is rare. It's rather hard to slam my laptop shut because my laptop closes kinda slowly. Maybe I should say I "Closed my laptop abruptly". Anyway, I stormed off to get ready for bed. After I was ready for bed I went straight to bed without saying good night to my husband, which is very rare.
As I laid in bed all that kept going through my head was "After all that work!" and "It's not worth it!" and things like that. At that point I didn't think there was no way out or it was the end. However, I was very upset. I just couldn't see the difference, I was tired, and like I said, I don't hold my liquor very well. As I fell asleep my brain kinda knew it would be better in the morning.
Well, it was better in the morning. I downloaded the pictures from that night from my camera on to my laptop. I then put the WW before pictures side by side with the 50/100 pictures. That morning I saw a difference.I definitely see the difference with the 385 pictures, that's a no brainer. I'm very proud of myself. I will soldier on. I will not give up. It's just very ironic that I had a breakdown on such a special night. I was supposed to be celebrating my success and I almost gave it all up. It's been pretty smooth sailing so far.
Hopefully the "halfway" celebration, in about 20 lbs, will have better results. I'll try not to drink so much and pay attention to when my glass is being filled! Friday night Hubby had topped my glass off and I didn't even know it! . Regardless, it was a great night. I felt very special and got to celebrate with some very special people. Thank you to everyone who has supported me and cheered me on. Thank you to all who made Friday night special. It was lots of fun. It was wonderful to share it with Hubby and AJ.Thank you to hubby for spending all the money and being there. Thank you to AJ for giving me a heartfelt card and a gift and for being there! A special thank you to Jim and Laurie Mahar for taking VERY good care of us.
I have at lot of 'doing lunch' coming up to see old friends I haven't seen in a while. I've been putting it off until I reached the 50/100 lb mark. Looking forward to celebrating with them. Can't wait to keep celebrating 'til I come out from under all of this fat.
