This is what it is like, moving on after abuse. I wanted to write this follow up blog as the abuse case is now over. It doesn’t stop though after it has finished, I am now having feelings and panic attacks about it all again and what is going to happen next.
I was abused sexually on 2 occasions as a child and only spoke about it last year after 23 years of keeping it inside. I had to speak out as another girl had come forward and she was his niece and none of the family believed her. I did, I knew she was telling the truth so had to do something.
It was hard, I had to do video interview with the police, it was awful, made me feel 13 again. I had my wonderful support worker with me from the children’s center but it was still so humiliating. BUT it did what I wanted and he got 3 years behind bars and on the sex offenders register indefinitely.
I am struggling to move on after abuse
But I am still so scared, its likely he will get out after 18 months, have contact with his families young kids and its making me feel sick, what if he finds me?
What if his family find me?
Why did he do it to me?
I got off lightly, he raped the other girl. But I am still so messed up. I have the victim support number from the police which I think I will be ringing but I can honestly say I thought it would be over now and I could put it behind me, but i am shocked to say it hasn’t happened like that.
Is this normal?
Did I do the right thing?
They are questions I will always ask myself.
I am also so much more protective of my kids especially the girls. I cant let them go in case it happens to them.
Please tell me someone it gets better and I can forget?
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