My Morning Before the Coffee Finished Brewing.

Maybe my negative thoughts got to the other doctor who tested Noah for Lowe because he called me this morning to go over those results. His first question to me was, “Who gave you the diagnosis that it might be Lowe?” I said no one really. It was me and all the research I had done and that one seemed to fit. He laughed and what sounded sarcastic was this response, “Well, then maybe we should hire you then, huh?” Just give me the damn results doc is what I wanted to say.  Sorry. Can you tell it really got to me? 
He called the mutated gene an “unclassified variant” which means they aren't sure what it means. Got that? I don't want any confusion like I had during this conversation with Dr. Jerk. So, they still want to test him for Lowe and the test that will confirm it is a skin graft that will test the enzyme. That enzyme will tell us if he has it or not and it's another test that after Noah has it done, it will be 3 weeks before we know any results. More waiting... 
He also wants me tested but this doctor wants it done at his office and not with the geneticist at TCH. I'd rather go to TCH but he said with his office, they'll do the genetic test on me at no charge. For someone on a budget, that sounds like a tempting offer! What to do....I know it all comes down to what is best for Noah. If it's the exact same test, it'll be cheaper all around and less time. What to do... 
God, please give me the strength to get through the next couple of months. I feel like I'm running out of steam and strength but I must keep going. Doctor's appointments will be easier once Isabella goes off to school next week. 
Just one day to sleep in with no kiddo interruption...sorry, I started daydreaming and it was nice. Ooooo, a whole day for that matter and pampering and a little shopping...just me...ok, quit torturing yourself, Jenna!  :) 
I'm off to grab a cup of coffee (that makes a lot of things better) and process all this new information and attempt to clean the living room again, which I should just give up until my little Bella goes to school. 
Have a good day folks, 
Jenna