Sometimes I wanna ask how she is
Words of worries long to slip from my lips
But I opted silence
and though I can sense her soundless cry
I stayed heedless
Not because I do not care
I do…I do
But the weaker me had the steering wheel
Had to follow the voice
The stronger actor that I used to play
Came to extinct
I can find her no more
Was I too weak to ask?
Was I too afraid to hear the truth?
Was it too heartless for me not to care?
Was it? Was it?
Deep down… words are erupting
I wanna ask her this…and that…
and those …and these
But I guess I wasn’t ready to hear her heartbeats…
I wasn’t prepared to see the flatlines
The breathing, the beating, the pulse
What if it’s just a make-believe
After all this time, she wasn’t there at all
She looks familiar but I don’t know her. Anymore. I see the reflection. I know I’ve seen her before. She was me. Used to be me.
Yes she was. Here. But not anymore.
