no more big picture, it’s back to every day small details.
With Will I (we) are back to details. It matters about each night sleep, about each meal, about school, about whether he smiles today or not. It’s about looking for patterns and trying not to read too much into each day.
I am learning (again) to celebrate each day when he seems to be happy and connecting. The days he doesn’t, we get through and make sure he is safe.
I am learning that small things count and can be huge in the scope of things. Each sleep is celebrated.
I am learning that he is his own person and very different in many ways to what I thought. I am discovering my son all over again.
I (and he) are learning about anger and the past and how to help him channel this into a healthy outcome. It’s better than putting holes in walls, over-exercising, harming things.
I am learning (scary here) that he has too many food dislikes and wants to eat “fresh” food. I am worried and each meal I prepare counts to cover all food groups. He eats, yes (particularly if I prepare it). But not enough really and its beginning to be only the foods he ‘likes’.
The small, everyday details count, they are important. One day they will lead to big picture and we can move into a different and wider stage.
