but i swear that after this week I will pay anyone to take her. Just kidding but it has been a swinging week. I am thinking that if she remains at home next year instead of finding full time work or a uni course away from home, we will both combust. Sigh, and then when she is gone I will worry every day that she is not eating right (because I know she won’t be) and when to expect her home because she is too sick.
Science is no longer the new life saving degree. Really? So.not.surprised. Sophie not only throws out the baby with the bath water, but also the sponge, soap and the actual bath. All gone. She is after black and white, all or nothing. Today was the day she did all her uni submissions. Am wondering if anyone else has put in submission to VTAC, UAC and QTAC for a total of 16 courses. Am pleased at least the are no submissions for the state of WA.
So of course her mood is all over the place. Others would say ‘I am stressed with doing my trials and deciding my uni entries’. Sophie says ‘I won’t eat eggs again, as they add to my iron levels’, or decide to tell me what I can and can’t buy at the supermarket. No ice cream this week (it’s bad for me) or only low-fat yoghurt (cause I am choosing my own yoghurts). Try to point out the illogic of this or that the ED is stronger than she thinks, and clearly I am lying.
Her counseling appt I think went fine but instead of close appointments that her counselor wanted, it is now monthly. How can you talk about the issues if it is only monthly!!! I thought they were going to talk about the issues and actually work towards something (BIG SIGH). She told her psychiatrist last week the anorexia was only present about 2/10 in her thinking. BS. We both know that you can add at least 3 points to that and then you are getting closer to reality.
So tonight am chilling out with biscuits, cheese and wine. Anything to block the week and hope the weekend might be better. Cheers!
