The letter arrived and let’s face it who likes to receive an appointment from the postman for you smear test.
The smear test has been due months before but I just kept putting it off until I had to go to the nurse for something different.
I walked into the room and she suggested since I was already there then I could have my smear test done too, great I thought not what I had wanted but i had my smear done, horrible things that they are.
She then explained I would get my results in a couple of weeks.
I walked out terrified as you should maybe know we were trying for a baby but nothing was happening, I was extremely anxious thinking something had to be wrong with me and could not help but think to myself, I have cancer.
I just got on with things.
I remember the date, it was the 16th November and I got a phone call from the nurse saying my smear had come back abnormal and that I had to go to the clinic.
I was shaking and crying, didn’t know what to think, the only thing I thought of was cancer.
She said I would receive an appointment which i did for the 6th December 2011.
As the day arrived I was a wreck, I remember my son had forgot to take his dinner money so I took it into school. I came away from the school and went to see my mum; I just broke down, couldn’t stop crying.
My appointment was for 4:20pm that afternoon. When I arrived I went to see the consultant and he asked the usual questions, then he asked when my last period was. I knew it was a couple of days late but I had put that down to stressing so much.
He said we had best do a test, I said ok but we have been trying for a baby for a long time and nothing had happened, I am talking years not months.
I went and did my sample and put it through the little hatch and went back in the room. I sat in the chair ready for the consultant to take a look and I remember it as if it was yesterday.
The nurse come back into the room and said to the other nurse “Can you check this please” and the nurse’s reply was “yes it’s positive.”
I have tears in my eyes as I am writing this, it was an amazing moment.
The nurse then said to the doctor “We got a positive”.
I was crying, smiling and shaking, so many emotions were running through my head.
When I left the room my partner was waiting for me, we walked outside. I was crying when he looked at me and I told him we were pregnant.
His face was a picture; he said that he was sat there thinking what if she comes out and says she is pregnant?
I smiled and said “I am and I did”
I contacted my mom and told her they couldn’t do anything and she she was scared and asked why not, I told her because I was pregnant.
The tears came again as I proceeded to tell my other family members, who were all happy as they knew how long we had being trying.
I did not have cancer, I was pregnant
So you see you don’t always get bad smear test results, I got a beautiful baby girl.
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