Hey everyone! I would like to Thank you guys for being Patient with me while I was dealing with some life threatening health issues. I still am but I am currently on some treatment program for it and it is helping so far.
I am also Pain free Thanks to my GF…My big Sister Patty, and My Mom for helping me get the money together to go to a pain clinic.
So now that I am feeling much better mentally and physically due to the pain medication and anxiety medication I am currently taking I will now be back here on WordPress Full Time again, even though I will also be working a full-time job.
(Yes I now have my dream job Thanks to my GF Melissa Saito) We both work for Infinity Ward…the company who makes the Call of Duty Games. We are about to Release Call of Duty Ghost soon and it is by far the best COD game ever! So be sure to pick up a copy when the game is released…if you like playing online Multiplayer you will not only be amazed but you will be so glad that we fixed a lot of stuff that BO2 was lacking.
So now I will start out with a Poem I am dedicating to the love of my life…This one is for you baby girl…Thanks for Saving my Life Melissa…and for loving me unconditionally even though I have already hurt you and put you through so much stress and pain…you didn’t give up on me and now the old me is back and now it is my turn to take care of you!
Love Truly exists
Lost and broken
Praying for a way to escape
my own mind
filled to the brim with Chaos
searching for the road leading back
to reality and sanity
A soldier she is
an Angel embedded and wounded
This man was Torn and diseased
Disguised as an actor
acting through life and pain
Never believing
My world could become so perfect
Discovering a girl who stitched my scars
permanently fixing what was always broken
Love to me was a myth
Like a world without death
Pulled from the depths
where darkness hides
I was born into a family
That murdered and sinned
A Family so dysfunctional
Loyalty was a fake aspiration
Searching for years as I was dying
Gave up on everything
even on life
But this girl found me when
I only had a few breaths left to breath
without this miracle I would have Been destroyed
buried with the rest of the sickness devouring humanity
A man who never had a chance to be a Boy
A man who only knew pain and sorrow
But now that she grabbed my hand
Firm and fearless
My life turned into sunlight
instead of cloud’s drowning me in rain
Acid burnt away the decency I had in me
Slowly burning and tearing away
as Lucifer ran his fingernails
upon my skin as I slowly faded away
into a hollowed monster
depraved and unworthy
She saved my life
and she did it without hesitation
her friends told her she was wrong and crazy
but deep inside she knew the love she felt
was more than just an attraction
it was the first time she felt alive and free
our hearts synced together
our souls melted like gold to steel
this world is ours
we are no longer in this alone
I squeeze your hand as you softly
place your fingers in-between my scarred and broken bones
no need to speak because your touch
says more than words ever could
for once in my life I feel safe & Secure
and inside I am lacking The anger
That was eating me away
The only other thing I can add to this poem
is that you are the only girl in this world
in my eyes and my mind
I see you and only you
because love does exist and I stare into its eyes
each and every morning I awake
Instead of wishing my eyes wouldn’t have opened
Like each day before I found you
Now every morning I cry because god granted me
another 24 hours
with the best damn thing that has ever happened to me
I hope you can now understand baby….
That I am not ever going anywhere
I am here to protect you and help you
and give you everything a girl like you deserves
You are the one
and I knew that you were the very first time
I gazed into those beautiful eyes of yours
You allow me to breath again
and all I want is to make you smile
every minute of every day
I love you Melissa Saito. Thanks for being who you are.
You’re an unattainable dream that guys like me normally never find
I thank god everyday that I am one of the ones…who acquired My very own Angel.
Mkay…This isn’t exactly a poem it’s more of a short letter I wrote for my GF due to all the pain and stress I have subjected her to lately because of my health problems.
More Poetry…REAL poetry coming soon…as well as Book reviews…Blog Tours…Author interviews and much more!
As you can see since I haven’t written in like over 5 months or more I am extremely rusty…but this is a free from poem…I wrote down the first words that popped into my head…Don’t worry baby I will be writing you another one once I warm up lol.
Melissa you are the air I breath…you are the reason I wanted to leave my outlaw life behind…because you are the only damn thing I need in this world.
You took a chance on a criminal….who is also addicted to Pain medicine….Your family warned you not to get involved but you ignored them anyway and listened to your heart…yours friends told you I was trouble…and that I would end up hurting you…but I promise you one thing right here and now…your friends are hypocrites and I am yours forever until you want me gone.
People really do need to stop judging a book by its cover. Because stuck u ignorant girls who have only known wealth and privilege have no right to judge someone or something they know noting about…so this right here is to all of Mel’s friends….get a life and stay out of our business…your words and your opinions doesn’t mean a damn thing to me or Mel…so go find love and stop trying to destroy other people’s happiness…if you are really this alone then go buy a dog or a cat…leave us the hell alone…seriously grow up already.
Your trust means everything to me and I will never compromise what we have ever again…you gave me a second chance and within 24 hours I was able to fix everything Like I told you I would and in return you bravely gave me back your heart and your trust. I will never forget what all you have done for me. I love you so much and I want the whole world to know…that my evil ass never deserved such an amazing girl like you.
But people do change and I damn sure did for you….do you know why?
Because you’re the only thing in my eyes I see. Nothing else in this world matters nothing else even compares to the feelings I have foe you.
