Confession 101- a Wild Goose Chase

After blogging and sharing my life online for five years, the process started to wear on me and feel almost stifling. Instead of writing from my heart and about my passions, I began second guessing myself, silencing my voice and feeling hesitant when it came to my own point of view. A blog that was my passion became a burden. I was not enjoying it, I had the content but I did not have the drive to edit, write and post. 
Coupled with the intense changes I've experienced over the past few months, I think it was necessary for me to step back and get some much needed perspective. I took time to reassess myself and my blog and realized that the very essence of my blog had changed. I started my blog to share my sartorial and lifestyle musings with my readers. It was a platform to give, grow and empower. My blog was about sharing my personal take on a trend, on a recipe, on a beauty product or even a pair of shoes for that matter. But the entire purpose of starting my blog had changed. 

J CREW heart blouse ( buy same ) // ANTHROPOLOGIE high waist pants ( buy same ) // BCBG MAXAZRIA trench ( similar ) 
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Instead of focusing on my personal abilities as a blogger, I was trying to be someone else. I was comparing myself to others. As a blogger/social figure it is very easy to become a victim to social-comparison and self-critizism. I was trying too hard to ape others just to feel one of them. The FOMO ( fear of missing out) was constantly pushing me to be someone who I was not. In my pursuit to feel a part of this community I was dressing up like others, even if it was out of my comfort zone. I was creating content on the line of others vision and not on something that was my own. My focus had shifted: rather than creating content for my valued readers, I was busy running the rat race that wasn't getting me anywhere. I was working hard but wasn't feeling content and or seeing results. 
But after a brief reassessment, the wild-goose chase seems to be coming to an end. I am now channeling all my energy and focus in doing what I enjoyed and the way I enjoyed it. I was the girl who loved colors, prints, patterns and bright lips, but when did I become the girl who just wore neutral boring colors, did little or no makeup, or put zero effort in her hair- I had no idea? But now no more, I am going to be myself. My followers love me for who I am and what I bring to their table everyday. I am just going to keep doing what I loved, what empowered me and what empowered my readers. So, in honor of that heres a look that screams 'Saumya', it is bright, bold and high on prints- cheers! 
SHOP MY OUTFIT 
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