I have been procrastinating enough. Sticking my head in the sand so to speak thinking if I don't think then I won't have to deal with the crazy taper emotional roller coaster and put it out there to the world, and myself, what my goals are.First, I feel beyond blessed that I have so many people around me who have complete confidence that I can and will break a 4 hour marathon. Thank you for all of your loving support. Yes, this is my big A+ goal. It is my dream. I just am still working on building that confidence. When I was feeling a bit edgy yesterday I told darling daughter how sorry I was. That I was in taper mind and worried about if I can break a 4 hour marathon. She immediately got up, crossed the room, and gave me the gentlest embrace ever and quietly told me, "You can do it, Mommy." After some teary hugging and chuckling I thanked her for her confidence and she bounced off saying I could break a 3 hour marathon! Even a 2 hour! Well, there you go...6 year old reasoning and undying belief in her mom. I am blessed.
I went to bed last night still pondering my goals and thought, well, now is a good time to pray. It went something like this:
Dear God, I am very scared. I really want to break a 4 hour marathon but I do not know if this race is the race or if this goal is your goal for me. I know you have a plan for me and that I am running for you. Whatever happens Sunday, I pray I run with swift and strong feet for you. Whatever time I get is exactly the time I was meant to get. Help me to not loose faith in myself or in you. May I run to honor you. In Jesus' name I pray. Amen.
As much as I can cast my worries up to Heaven I feel I still need to be centered on Earth. To set tiered goals to allow me to have faith in myself. So my A goal is to PR. Currently my marathon PR is 4:10:18. There is still a HUGE difference between this race time and my race times at the Maui Marathon.
Therefore, my B+ goal is to PR at the Maui Marathon. This will be my fourth time running this race and to PR I will need to break 4:36:16 (set in 2012). Last year was tough and I ran the race in 4:39:46.
And just to round things out, my B goal is to finish knowing I did my best, that I kept my faith, that I tried my best, and that I am able to run again on Monday.
Phew! That took so long to sit down to type but yet, once I started typing it all became crystal clear.
Maui Marathon...here I come!!!
Daily Gratitude: I am thankful for finallly typing out my goals.
Daily Affirmation: On race day, my faith will keep me strong. Toby will be the wind at my back. Darling daughter will be my heart.
