Oh where do I start? This is something I am not proud of and I guess it’s my dirty little secret.
My ex partner and I had a lot of wrong things in our relationship, but we had two children together so I thought well this is my life , oh how wrong was I?
I spent a lot of time, the same as the ex on a chat site where we was both a moderator/admin, so I had lots of friends via it. I became very close to one bloke. He was 12 years older then me and we talked about everything , to be honest I think we knew more about each other then our own partners did and that’s when the flirty banter started and it got more intimate as the years went on
I also made friends with another lad (same age as myself) and we would talk on the phone and text a lot . All the while I was still talking to bloke A. But me and Bloke B got more sexual through our texts and I even sent him a picture of me top half naked (I cringe thinking back to it now) .
During all this I was playing the mom and girlfriend to an unhappy relationship, but if you’d ask him we were the perfect couple
Me and bloke B then started web chatting while the ex was visiting his mother with the children. (I always stayed at home as I couldn’t stand her) and we would chat and yes he told me he loved me and because I was so lonely I fell for it and our relationship became more.
Every Wednesday we used to web cam and turn our self on in front of each other (cringe again) I’m no way proud of this now but at the time he made me feel special
The along came Bloke C . Now remember I was still chatting to bloke A and doing web cam stuff with bloke B. Bloke C started out just as a friend for a few months till we both realised we DID love each other and had to meet.
A month later while still having all 3 blokes on the go , I met Bloke C and yes it was love at first sight .
When I got home I stopped everything with bloke B, but was just putting him off till I found the right time to explain to him about Bloke C.
Bloke A was still my closest friend but he knew nothing at all. We are still friends now after 4 years of me leaving my ex and I’m happily married to bloke C , he knows what went on with bloke B and it hurts him and we never talk about it .
Am I ashamed? Damn right and I know I will be judged but at the time I loved the attention I was getting as the ex paid me none, so this is my guilty secret.
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