Gray Eyed Athena
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complicated, imperfect, hungry
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Gray Eyed Athena
http://grayeyedathena.com/
complicated, imperfect, hungry
LATEST ARTICLES ( 197 )
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Summer Please Now
In the depth of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer. -Albert CamusAll this spring sunlight is wonderful and uplifting and... Read more
Posted on 09 April 2013 SELF EXPRESSION -
Flying Time
Sluggish mornings end up being hectic afternoons and time slips off my desk and crawls along the carpet and escapes out the door. Into the sunlight. Lucky... Read more
Posted on 09 April 2013 SELF EXPRESSION -
Stucked
Email to my mom this morning:Mom please don’t freak out but I feel really strange this morning. I am getting stuck on things… I was driving and couldn’t focus o... Read more
Posted on 09 April 2013 SELF EXPRESSION -
Patience.
I am learning patience. Patience for the morning light-headedness. Patience for my zombie-until-noon drug induced state. Patience for myself and my weight... Read more
Posted on 09 April 2013 SELF EXPRESSION -
Dinner 360 Calories
My dinner last night was so good and fresh and satisfying. I started off with bean thread noodles (also known as glass noodles in Asia, which is where I was... Read more
Posted on 09 April 2013 SELF EXPRESSION -
Almost Adjusted
I left at my lunch break today to see my chiropractor and loved my drive there and back with the windows down in the sunlight. Read more
Posted on 08 April 2013 SELF EXPRESSION -
My Version of a Binge, 3 Lbs Gained, Question Pms
I don’t know if it was my zombie drugs or my exhaustion or my sadness at having to take these medications or my frustration at being a HORRIFIC sleeper, but I... Read more
Posted on 08 April 2013 SELF EXPRESSION -
My Rx Recipe
400mg of Gabapentin +100mg of Trazodone +8 hours in bed += 1 slightly better rested, but incredibly dopey girl.I am groggy and slow this morning; my friend at... Read more
Posted on 08 April 2013 SELF EXPRESSION -
Addicted to Anxiety
Breakthrough in therapy last night. I self-sabotage constantly because I need something to worry about.Routinely and intentionally, I run my car on empty,... Read more
Posted on 05 April 2013 SELF EXPRESSION -
Flat Line
The anticipation and hope I’ve felt during the past two weeks for my appointment with Dr. Johnson and for a med that might be helpful is what sustained me... Read more
Posted on 05 April 2013 SELF EXPRESSION -
Overused, but Necessary
This is why I love my therapist.My email to him this morning:Hi Robert,The gabapentin didn’t work last night… I took 3 of them total by the time morning came… n... Read more
Posted on 05 April 2013 SELF EXPRESSION -
Defeat
The text I sent mom at 2:53 am this morning: “I’m awake and I’ve been awake and I’m already on my 3rd pill and I’m trying not to be upset but I’m going to... Read more
Posted on 05 April 2013 SELF EXPRESSION -
Bipolar Free, New Meds, Like My Psychiatrist!
I am just back from meeting Dr. Johnson, my new psychiatrist. I am so happy with our first encounter and felt like he took the time to be extremely thorough an... Read more
Posted on 03 April 2013 HEALTH, PSYCHOLOGY, SELF EXPRESSION -
Lowest Weight! Calorie Count=730
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Posted on 03 April 2013 HEALTH, SELF EXPRESSION -
Sweet Dreams
Posted on 03 April 2013 SELF EXPRESSION
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Dear Psychiatrist, Are You Listening?
I meet Dr. Johnson tomorrow. I’m beyond hopeful that he will be able to help me, and to help clarify things for him (and because I’m absurdly organized) I’ve... Read more
Posted on 02 April 2013 HEALTH, PSYCHOLOGY, SELF EXPRESSION -
Your Dose of Happiness
I’m assuming you’ve seen this marriage proposal, set to one of my favorite songs: Bruno Mars “Marry You.” You should watch it again, just to get happy. And i... Read more
Posted on 02 April 2013 SELF EXPRESSION -
Goal Dress
As most of you know, I have a first goal of 130 pounds by the wedding B and I will attend in late June. This is totally feasible, and hopefully I will weigh... Read more
Posted on 02 April 2013 HEALTH, SELF EXPRESSION -
Welcome to Crazy. Also Known as Normal BMI Land.
I know I already dropped into the normal BMI range mid-March, but that was quickly usurped by my insomnia and all the fallout and subsequent weight gain from... Read more
Posted on 02 April 2013 HEALTH, PSYCHOLOGY, SELF EXPRESSION -
and There Was Evening, and There Was Morning; the Sixth Day.
“Did you at least find something usable?” The tired boy with hair in his eyes asked, searching her face and the bag she carried for something edible… not that... Read more
Posted on 02 April 2013 HEALTH, PSYCHOLOGY, SELF EXPRESSION