Traveling to…Sentinel Peak “A” Mountain

It’s been over a month since I took my first trip up to Sentinel Peak “A” Mountain, better known as the Big A, with Brittany and the pups. After spending afternoons on the balcony overlooking the Big A in the far distance I finally got to be beside it, overlooking downtown Tucson, and our apartment.  In no way was this a serious hike, or a hike at all for that matter, but my fear of low heights made it a challenge for me…yes you heard me right, low-heights as if that could make any sense. Well, I had a rambunctious dog pulling on his owner, who does not have the best balance or hand-eye-coordination, so you can see why I just kept imagining my face just kissing the rocks….but this hectic time of my life between my trip up there and now has been about conquering certain fears. I didn’t feel like myself, I was out of my element, I couldn’t focus on one simple task at a time, I easily became overwhelmed, and it just felt like I was outside of my body looking at someone going through the motions of life, which I’ve felt before. I let fear fill me with uncertainty and doubt in myself, my capabilities, and in turn led me to have a sense that my biggest fear of being alone was becoming reality. We all have fears and doubt ourselves through certain situations, whether it be a task at work or being able to motivate yourself to get back to eating well and staying active, but it’s how we handle those feelings that makes us who we are. Then again the biggest mistake you could ever make, is being too afraid to even make one because through your mistakes you learn and grow as a person, and that’s how I’ve looked at certain events in my life during the past month. I’ve let fear get in the way of doing things that make me “me”…but that’s about to change. A new season, especially my favorite Spring, always brings about a fresh new start…