Huzzah! I’m 34 years old today! I’m not very good in Math so it always takes me a couple of seconds to do deductions in my head when I’m asked how old I am. But yeah, I’m now officially 34. Do I feel any different? Not really. Except for an ache on my right hip that won’t go away and the fact that I can apparently gain back the weight I lost last year in a span of two months, I feel mostly the same.
This marks the second time that I spent my birthday at home, but this time there is a perception shift in my head. I no longer think that I am grounded. I’ve grieved and mourned the missed travel opportunities because of the pandemic and now I’m mostly thankful that I’m spending my birthday with my family who are safe and are with me. I know of many, many people who will be spending birthdays this year with massive losses in their circles and my heart goes out to them. We don’t deserve this kind of treatment and it’s excruciating to see the ineptitude of the government.
Case in point: on my birthday post last year, I said that I was looking forward to going back into the office on the 16th of May when the ECQ lifts. We’re basically in the same situation. Once again, the NCR is under “strict” lockdown and I am looking forward to coming into the office to get stuff sorted on the 17th. It’s the bad kind of de ja vu.
Also, I am still obsessed with Astro (I did stop myself from buying their All Yours album so there’s a slight improvement) and I have come to accept my new status as a fan girl. They give me joy and during these difficult times, I’ll take joy wherever I can take it.
There are a few things that are different though, and I think I will explain more about those in future posts.
But for now, suffice it to say that I am happy and mostly content. I’m still scared AF because of the virus and am taking every possible precaution to not leave the house unless extremely necessary but that’s what being a Filipino means nowadays. I just try to focus on the good things in my life that I’m thankful for.
2020 was a difficult year and I had gone through multiple emotional rollercoasters because of the forced changes because of the pandemic as well as some difficult stuff that happened at work. I’m glad that it’s over and I’m so thankful to be on the other side mostly unscathed.
