Ever wanted something so bad but known how wrong it was of you. Not known whether to follow your head or your heart…………
I met up with a friend who I hadn’t seen for years and felt an instant attraction to her partner he was my type dark hair,warm smile and lots of tattoos.I couldn’t be the ‘other woman’ could I ?
Overtime me and my friends partner began to have a connection mainly because we liked the same things it was all OK until I started to feel him undressing me with his eyes and me longing for it to be reality. One evening my friend had gone to bed and me and her partner sat downstairs to watch the end of the film.
We were sat next to each I could feel the frustration between us the desire I felt to rip of his clothes,to kiss him passionately to feel him against me.I could feel my heart pumping feeling like it wanted to pop out my chest. I didn’t make the first move maybe I knew it was wrong to be feeling like that. Her partner put his arm around me on the back of the sofa thinking nothing of it.
The next thing I knew he was gently moving my hair out of my face and calling my namely softly, looking into my eyes.What do I do follow my head or my heart ?
We cuddled on the sofa watching the film my body longing to feel him against me,inside of me and before I knew it he was kissing me and I couldn’t hold back he gently took of my clothes and went down on me making me moan with pleasure the thoughts of his hard cock turning me on more as I could feel how turned on he is was.
He lay me on the floor and gently made love to me.
The feeling of knowing what we were doing felt so wrong yet so right we cuddled on the sofa after and I had butterflies in my stomach BUT then the guilt kicked in his partner was upstairs my friend what had I done?!?
I didn’t want to be a home wrecker so I made my excuses and left I felt awful.I tried to avoid him as much as I could but the desire we had for each other was too strong.
We began texting each other me apologising him saying he wanted to leave my friend.My head was a mess yet I kept going back for more I longed to be with him, I couldn’t stop thinking about him.
We then started an affair having sex whenever and where ever we could, although at this point my friend and partner hadn’t slept together in over a month and weren’t sleeping in the same bed.
How could this carry on could I carry on being the ‘other woman’. Then it all changed when I got kicked out of my parent’s home and I went to live with them.It became easier to steal kisses.
How can something so wrong feel so right ??
We were having an affair kissing,having sex and holding hands whenever possible I knew this was more than I ever imagined it could be. He took me on a date and as we sat there he told me he ‘loved me’. I didn’t say it back although my heart was telling me by now I felt the same.
We decided we needed to tell her. I know people will judge but you can’t help who you fall for. We’ve been together 3 years now,engaged and we are expecting a daughter soon.
I know people often question how I know he won’t cheat on me and the simple answer is I don’t but I trust him with all my heart and I know that whatever happens things happen for a reason.
