Forgive & Be Indifferent

Do you find it hard to let go? I find it very hard to let go. The smallest of things can get on my nerves. When something bothers me, or when things are not in my control a tumultuous storm starts roaring inside my chest that wants to destruct everything around me. If nothing else at least give a piece of my mind to the person who is causing this upheaval in my heart and brain.
With time I have learnt to recognize the signs of such ‘storms’ arriving. I try my best to calm myself with reason. With practice I am successful at doing that 9 out of 10 times. As the storm dies out the feeling to destruct is replaced with overwhelm and an urge to weep. I wait for that feeling to pass too … and then all I am left with is disappointment, which is nothing else but a fruit of my own expectation.
For future I lower my expectations to reduce the chances for disappointment:  Become a little stronger, a little harder, and a little colder. However, I am afraid, what I am actually becoming is indifferent. Because honestly, what are my options? Forgive -> Forget -> Repeat … or break the vicious circle and simply Forgive & Be Indifferent! I choose the later. Works for my sanity.






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