A Small Triumph

A while ago I wrote about the parenting decision I have most trouble sticking to. You can read about it here. At that time it was a daily struggle not to smack Chai.
A few weeks ago I realised that I don't remember the last time I wanted to smack him. I've been letting that sink in for a while and am so, so pleased. I thought it might be a temporary thing but I've realised that even though the last few weeks/months have been tough I haven't once thought about smacking Chai.
He's been upset so doing all sorts of frustrating things recently, hitting, yelling etc and not once did I think of smacking him. Yes! I won't say that I'm totally cured and that I'll never want to smack him again, but I will say that I have won this round.
It was seven months ago I wrote my post, I certainly wasn't expecting to be writing a post like this so soon, I expected to battle with it for at least  a year. Maybe it'll come up again, no doubt it will, but right now, in this moment, I have broken the cycle and I am so very very proud.