Happy 2016! Boy, am I glad to see you! Not that 2015 was a bad year; in fact, it was an excellent year with promotions and travel, exciting changes, home improvements, and the like. However, 2015 left me feeling scattered, unhappy, and out of control. I am not happy with how I feel, how I look, how much I weigh, and how I am constantly waffling between so angry I can barely see to so depressed I just want to become a hermit. I am not happy with how I have let this site, my one main outlet, diminish in importance over the year. I am simply so very tired.
Things have got to change. This unhappy, angry person is not me. It is impacting my family, my friends, and my own self-worth. This is not how I want to be when I turn 40 in May. Knowing that I want 2016 to be different, it was time for me to do some major self-reflection. I started with envisioning how I want to feel in 2016. It then moved to who I want to be and how I want to act. What came out of this exercise is my word for 2016.
Such a simple word and yet, it encompasses everything I want to be in my life – mentally, physically, and spiritually healthy, complete, centered, calm, at peace. Somehow, over the years I have lost my way and have become fractured into a million different pieces that do nothing but cause friction in my mind, soul, and body. My goal for 2016 is to live my life striving to become whole again.
This goal is for every aspect of my life. I want to keep things real – on here and in my everyday life. Stay in the moment. Branch out from books all the time to show all of my other loves. Read just to read and not because of any semblance of obligation. I want to share more of my beautiful family with my friends. I want to have fun. I have always striven to make my reviews and this site as professional as possible, but I am tired of that. I am never going to be a professional blogger who makes a living salary from this, and more importantly, nor do I want to be anymore. So, expect more of an authentic voice in my reviews, cursing, and everything that makes me me. You will see me make recommendations and sharing advice on everything from makeup to finances and organization – something I never felt I was worthy of making in years past. I am going to share my strengths in all elements of my life.
I do not expect this journey to being whole to be an easy one, but then again, so very little in life that is worthwhile is easy. I will slip up and fall back into old habits. I will get frustrated and impatient. However, I will persevere. This is my birthday present to myself – becoming who I am truly meant to be.
I invite you to help me along my journey. Caution me when I am slipping. Cheer me on when things get tough. Celebrate my wins and help me forgive myself for any transgressions. After all, that’s what friends are for, right?
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Did you select a word for 2016? What did you select and why? If not, what are some of your resolutions for the new year?
