Distractions are welcome!
This weekend was all over the place. My family has been dealing with an unexpected traumatic situation and it’s been hard for all of us to understand and come to terms with. I spent this weekend feeling everything. I felt buckets of tears down my cheek, a huge smile across my face, my best friend’s warm hug, utter exhaustion and severe worry for the future.Yesterday, I couldn’t wait to wake up for work today. Who would have thought a Monday would be welcomed in my life? Sometimes it’s okay to need distractions. Right now work is a distraction for me. It’s somewhere to go and dig in, I can zone everything else out and just work. It feels good not to feel after a weekend of feeling so much.
Something else that I realized after a weekend of feeling is how much I’m grateful for and how much I need others. Jared is the worlds most understanding man, he knows exactly when I need to be hugged and for how long. Jared also understands that sometimes a girl just needs her best friend. We drove 2 hours to see Ellen on Saturday and without that trip my weekend would have only been filled with tears. Without doing any special or saying anything deep Ellen gives me that a peaceful feeling, a feeling that means no matter what I know she is there. Simply having a handful of people that are “there” for me is another thing I’m grateful for.
I know that I’m being weirdly vague, I’m trying to respect my family and let everyone come to terms in their own way before I allow myself to express it all here, which I do want to do. Writing always has helped me understand the thoughts that float around in my own brain.
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