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Working 9 to 5

By Countesstt @CountessTT

WORKING 9 TO 5

Hard Workers
(Tasza & Mike) - Summer 2005

It started to hit me that I wasn’t going to be going back to work anytime soon.  At first I guess it felt like I was just on holidays but after a while life at home without going into the office each day seemed more permanent – so to speak.  I was really grappling with the fact that I didn’t have to go to work and that I didn’t have to feel any stress and that all I needed to do was focus on taking care of me.  When you’ve worked pretty much your entire adult life this is a strange place to find yourself.
Except for two maternity leaves, I have always worked.  So to get my head around the fact that the laundry could wait one more day because I was going to be home was odd.  To realize that I didn’t have to rush to cram everything into the weekends and evenings was also odd.  I was in a position where I totally had to change my entire way of being and my complete mindset needed a major overhaul.  Think about it.  It was actually okay if I sat down with a cup of tea and a magazine at 11:00 am and not feel like “something needed to be done.”  I could lie down on the couch and take a nap.  I could watch a movie in the middle of the afternoon.  I could go to the grocery store in the daytime.  Wow.  A freaky turn of events that I would indeed need to get used to.  My job now, I suppose, was to work on me.  Take care of me.  That’s what everyone kept telling me but it made me feel kind of selfish and spoiled.  However, I do know that it was the right thing to do to feel good and stay healthy and as strong as possible with NO STRESS to cause any problems or setbacks.

WORKING 9 TO 5

Another Hard Worker
(Alex) - Summer 2004


I was lucky to be feeling good so I decided to walk every day from the first day of chemo until maybe one day I couldn’t anymore.  While I was able you could be damn sure that I was going to get out there and move around and pull in as much fresh fall air as I could get.  I was even able to run for about 5 kms as well.  I could take walks for as long as I wanted.  I made a decision to stop wearing a watch.  Why?  There was really nowhere I had to be at any given time so I could walk as long as I wanted to.  I so enjoyed these walks and I always took Bailey, our Portuguese Water Dog, with me.

WORKING 9 TO 5

Bailey & Me - Summer 2005


The first day that I started running was less than a week after treatment #1.  I was running along in the morning and I realized that I was laughing.  I was running and laughing like a crazy person.  I was just so amazed that I could run.  I looked to the left and saw the bright sun shining and then I looked to the right and saw that the moon was still out and then I just started to laugh out loud!  It felt so great!  People must have thought I was a lunatic.  I didn’t care.  I felt like screaming, “look at me I have cancer and I’m in chemo and I’m still running!!”
Here’s another thing that changed.   I cooked.  I actually started to cook more often.  I cooked dinner and shocked the crap out of my family.  It was Shepherd’s Pie.  I know it was an easy start but it was quite edible.  Everyone gobbled it up.  I planned to continue wowing my family with new culinary delights every night.  I was loving being at home. 
I was feeling guilty about it.  Just a little tiny bit. Working 9 To 5 - Dolly Parton


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