Rielouise
MY BLOGS
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So Sick of Drowning
http://rielouise.wordpress.com/
At first glance, it may appear as though my blog about '90% about whining how miserable my life is. This is far from the truth. Dig a little deeper and you'll find posts about cats, art, nature, IT, relationships, the military, politics, history, psychology and much more besides. The blog does however deal with the issue of mental illness and if you find those posts 'miserable' it is because I was in the middle of a relapse. But if you work hard you will ultimately be rewarded.
LATEST ARTICLES ( 78 )
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The Unbearable Unfashionableness of Blogs
I do not know what brings me here to this desolate place. A friend once told me she found my blog one of the most depressing things she had ever reward. Read more
Posted on 02 October 2021 DIARIES, SELF EXPRESSION -
Somewhat Bitter
Dear Nurse O’Connor, I am writing to you because you are my only point of contact. Please forgive the rambling, fragmentary nature of this missive. Read more
Posted on 09 December 2019 DIARIES, SELF EXPRESSION -
At An Impasse
I doubt anyone will read this but I want to make a record in case anything happens. Desperate times call for desperate measures.First some context. Read more
Posted on 20 November 2019 DIARIES, SELF EXPRESSION -
Mother
Decades pass And miraculously she is still alive By the grace of some Benevolent God She survivesGround down by the weight Of the enemy within Year after year... Read more
Posted on 29 July 2018 DIARIES, SELF EXPRESSION -
Old Novel
A Day on an Eating Disorders Unit:First page of an old novel(Warning it’s pretty terrible but nonetheless…)Images of the EdibleShe was dreaming of food.It was... Read more
Posted on 29 July 2018 DIARIES, SELF EXPRESSION -
Saboteurs (Repost)
Eye to Eye With Their AllySaboteursIn the milky light of the bleak dawn Agents and saboteurs awake Preparing to assassinate Some dark lieutenant Of the occupyin... Read more
Posted on 28 July 2018 DIARIES, SELF EXPRESSION -
Falling
I do not remember my dreams any more. I prefer being asleep to being awake. My life is over.Frail dreams fade, Shrinking away from the hot, bright light Of the... Read more
Posted on 26 July 2018 DIARIES, SELF EXPRESSION -
Breaking the Spell
What does it take to break the spell To rupture the webbing That wraps itself around me The world is waiting for me Waiting to trip me up I am no sleeping beaut... Read more
Posted on 25 July 2018 DIARIES, SELF EXPRESSION -
Quotes About Freedom of Speech
Will elaborate.shortly:“If liberty means anything at all, it means the right to tell people what they do not want to hear.” ― George Orwell“The moment... Read more
Posted on 07 April 2018 DIARIES, SELF EXPRESSION -
Fad Diet Friday
Dear subs. Or followers. Or whatevers, (I think I shall settle with the latter. Subs sounds way to mundane and I don’t need ‘followers’. I am not Jesus Christ. Read more
Posted on 17 February 2018 DIARIES, SELF EXPRESSION -
Cool Shades of Blue
The sun, a pale yellow disk in the sky, was going down. She thought of childhood. She thought of freedom. Memories thrust themselves upon her. Read more
Posted on 16 May 2017 DIARIES, SELF EXPRESSION -
The Chemical Lobotomy
When I was first hospitalized as a teenager, I was, or so I was told, very ill. I was experiencing delusions I would rather not discuss in any detail here.... Read more
Posted on 23 April 2017 DIARIES, SELF EXPRESSION -
Pale Morning
She stands On the parapet Of the bridge Staring down At the sparkling blue Of the water belowHer body slices Through the stillness Of the pale morning At one... Read more
Posted on 07 April 2017 DIARIES, SELF EXPRESSION -
Sucked In?
My New ToyI have recently acquired a new toy. I first saw it in the Certified Refurbished section of the online Apple Store and immediately fell in love with it... Read more
Posted on 06 April 2017 DIARIES, SELF EXPRESSION -
Sunset
Evening and the sunset’s compress Soothes our inflamed flesh And I am stunned By its sudden incandescent flare The mud, the silt stretches for miles Encompassin... Read more
Posted on 04 April 2017 DIARIES, SELF EXPRESSION -
Slow Road to Dementia?
Cognitive Impairment in Middle AgeSlow Road to Dementia?There is only one thing scarier than dementia and that is early onset dementia. Read more
Posted on 03 April 2017 DIARIES, SELF EXPRESSION -
Borderland
No feud is enough to keep me from you I brave the barricades and the border guards And you appear so near now. I journey Through memories in dark and restless... Read more
Posted on 29 March 2017 DIARIES, SELF EXPRESSION -
A City Segmented
We can never put this together again Fragments and shreds. A city Spartan, skeletal, segmented. Utterly disjointed. Machine gun fire, missiles Emerge from the... Read more
Posted on 28 March 2017 DIARIES, SELF EXPRESSION -
Loneliness In Middle Age: Myself In The Third Person
Loneliness In Middle Age By Louise MilsLoneliness is often portrayed as a condition of old age. Little attention has been paid to the kind of loneliness that... Read more
Posted on 26 March 2017 DIARIES, SELF EXPRESSION -
Myself: A Case Study
:This will be the bleakest blog entry for a while and for that I apologise. The breadcrumbs have been devoured by the birds and there is no way back. I have to... Read more
Posted on 20 March 2017 DIARIES, SELF EXPRESSION