Gray Eyed Athena

LATEST ARTICLES ( 197 )

• Qu’une Nuit Paraît Longue à La Douleur Qui Veille

  

  And here is how the nights go: I watch my ceiling and try to catch a humming fan blade in my sight as it swings and slices, my eyes latching and clinging and... Read more

  Posted on 02 July 2014 SELF EXPRESSION

• We Are Each Our Own Devil, and We Make This World Our Hell.

  

  In a humid fog I sat across the picnic table from Joe on Friday afternoon after having been pressured persuaded to give him another opportunity to hear me and m... Read more

  Posted on 30 June 2014 SELF EXPRESSION

• Now

  Time to feel something. Ocean, not cold enough. Cutting, not deep enough. Starving, not sharp enough. Wind, not strong enough. Movement, not fast enough.... Read more

  Posted on 28 June 2014 SELF EXPRESSION

• Drift

  clickand the gears shift.  I return, just in time to slam on the brakes.  My sight almost refocusing, parched contacts irritating my eyes, but no water... Read more

  Posted on 20 June 2014 SELF EXPRESSION

• We Grow Accustomed to the Dark

  

  We grow accustomed to the Dark - When Light is put away - As when the Neighbor holds the Lamp To witness her Good bye - A Moment – We uncertain step For... Read more

  Posted on 18 June 2014 SELF EXPRESSION

• You’re Gross. Marry Me.

  I feel, or rather do not feel, the emptiness of having nothing left.Friday night, I went to our home to collect my remaining items. He showed me the ring we... Read more

  Posted on 17 June 2014 SELF EXPRESSION

• Dearest Geneva,

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  Posted on 17 June 2014 SELF EXPRESSION

• Running away from Joseph was actually running away from myself. My Self. Staying meant I would have to face the reality of my flaws. Talking to him, giving him ... Read more

  Posted on 14 June 2014 SELF EXPRESSION

• Sickness

  “That’s the thing about pain. It demands to be felt.” -John Green, The Fault in our StarsI ache.There is a palpable palpitation and a sickness crawling, spiny... Read more

  Posted on 14 June 2014 SELF EXPRESSION

• Be Glad and Confident

  Excerpt from RM Rilke’s Letters to a Young PoetBut perhaps these are the very hours during which solitude grows; for its growing is painful as the growing of... Read more

  Posted on 14 June 2014 SELF EXPRESSION

• Hectic Glow

  I drifted on the tidal night away from the bonfire on the water’s edge, finding my way in the late night air up the lane of my childhood home to cross the... Read more

  Posted on 04 June 2014 SELF EXPRESSION

• Like Hell.

  Who I am is a presence of energy pulsing outward.  Who I am not is negative space.  A vacuum.I miss him.  I can’t bring myself to remove the photo of him which... Read more

  Posted on 03 June 2014 SELF EXPRESSION

• Pangs

  A vacant space once aching in absentia now hungers, thirsts, cravesI want to live. Have I told you?Muzzle tossed away, tiger blood pulsing, vitality so broad an... Read more

  Posted on 30 May 2014 SELF EXPRESSION

• Breathe In, Breathe Out.

  Slipping sliding slippery glimpses caught like moments trapped in glass jars, wings fluttering and stirring the sound and air and a sigh escapes her lips. Read more

  Posted on 29 May 2014 SELF EXPRESSION

• Loss & Desire

  Extinguish my eyes, I’ll go on seeing you. Seal my ears, I’ll go on hearing you. And without feet I can make my way to you, without a mouth I can swear your... Read more

  Posted on 29 May 2014 SELF EXPRESSION

• Courage

  Pain, in its greatest triumph, exists as fear and shadow.And so how do we triumph over pain?We triumph by allowing its power to be fully felt, and in so doing,... Read more

  Posted on 28 May 2014 SELF EXPRESSION

• Letting Go

  Joseph,Though your heart is breaking and that was my doing–my heart is also breaking and that is yours.I’ve been asking you to see me, hear me, know me… I... Read more

  Posted on 27 May 2014 SELF EXPRESSION

• and Here is the Deepest Secret

  I’ve left our home in Cape Elizabeth and am slipping from wave crest to wave trough as I feel, completely, an absence in my heart and body which I feel and... Read more

  Posted on 27 May 2014 SELF EXPRESSION

• Joseph

  [i carry your heart with me (i carry it in] i carry your heart with me (i carry it inmy heart) i am never without it (anywherei go you go, my dear; and... Read more

  Posted on 27 May 2014 SELF EXPRESSION

• Hold. On.

  Now comes the time to screw my courage to the sticking place because I am watching my world crumble and it’s hard to find my spot inside myself where I feel goo... Read more

  Posted on 23 May 2014 SELF EXPRESSION