Gray Eyed Athena

LATEST ARTICLES ( 197 )

• Aim Between the Eyes

  Let’s be honest.I should be honest.There’s not much chance to come out of this.And no, I don’t want to look like that.  I want to be beautiful.  I don’t want... Read more

  Posted on 18 October 2013 SELF EXPRESSION

• Came to a Fork

  I feel stupid saying this now, because now none of it matters.  It won’t ever be good enough and I get that on some level on this artificial-intelligent... Read more

  Posted on 26 September 2013 SELF EXPRESSION

• How to Hop a Train

  The more I learn, the more I know I don’t know anything.  Filling becomes emptying.  I also don’t eat, and that makes me feel… something.  Emptying becomes... Read more

  Posted on 26 September 2013 SELF EXPRESSION

• Open Season

  Balloon string. Thread hanging, too much body weight, too much too much.Yoga keeps saying Be The Witness and I keep saying holy shit.All I am is a witness. Neve... Read more

  Posted on 25 September 2013 SELF EXPRESSION

• Readme

  Things are progressing and if I think about this for a full moment and really feel what’s happening, I know that I’m in deep and I know that I don’t know how... Read more

  Posted on 14 September 2013 SELF EXPRESSION

• Empty Empty Empty Empty Empty Empty Empty Empty Empty Emp...

  Empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empt... Read more

  Posted on 13 September 2013 SELF EXPRESSION

• I’m a Real Boy

  42 pounds goodbye. Passed out in the shower this morning; slid to floor. Came out of it and forced myself to eat a banana. Spontaneous, painful muscle cramps... Read more

  Posted on 31 August 2013 SELF EXPRESSION

• Tail Chasing Til i Can’t

  I am 220 calories today.Coffee, baby carrots, banana, string cheese, cherry tomatoes.Crawl home high on e-n-e-r-g-y.  Pop two oxycodone’s and three laxatives,... Read more

  Posted on 30 August 2013 SELF EXPRESSION

• Please

  I burp and stale air flavored with the acid linings of my stomach Creeps from my throat A reminder: you didn’t eat todayForty pounds now Hatred grows, body... Read more

  Posted on 22 August 2013 SELF EXPRESSION

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  CrumblingagainWhat goes upwill come down.I’m overwhelmed.Party planning (am I really cut out for this?)Whether or not to sign up for yoga teacher training in th... Read more

  Posted on 10 July 2013 SELF EXPRESSION

• Summer Sunset

  

  I spent my weekend at the beach with a friend, rejuvenating my wardrobe with several very productive shopping trips (yay!), and escaping the heat by... Read more

  Posted on 08 July 2013 SELF EXPRESSION

• Pool Workout

  

  The weather has been well within the 90-100 range, not including humidity (and it has been STICKY) for the past couple of weeks, so my trainer moved our... Read more

  Posted on 08 July 2013 SELF EXPRESSION

• Be Your One Weird Self.

  I’m in the midst of planning a wild Burning Man party for this weekend, which means the crazier and weirder it gets, the better. Read more

  Posted on 08 July 2013 SELF EXPRESSION

• Weekend Wedding in Vermont

  

  The much anticipated wedding was last weekend!  This was the date I had in mind when I refocused my goals and motivations. I had planned to have lost a grand... Read more

  Posted on 05 July 2013 SELF EXPRESSION

• Gluten Free Granola

  

  I’d say one of Joseph’s main food groups is granola.  I typically buy the Kind’s brand gluten free granola in bulk from Amazon, but it’s expensive and I like... Read more

  Posted on 05 July 2013 SELF EXPRESSION

• Summer Sunset

  

  I am surrounded by beauty.  I wake up to wonder every day.Joe and I stopped to grab these sunset shots on our way back from the beach. Read more

  Posted on 05 July 2013 SELF EXPRESSION

• Happy Fourth of July!

  

  I worked all day yesterday (hospitals never sleep) but was able to head north after work to meet my best friend Alyson at an outdoor Matt Nathanson concert. Read more

  Posted on 05 July 2013 SELF EXPRESSION

• Sleep Study, June 18th

  

  I had my overnight Polysomnography sleep study on Tuesday, July 18th at a hospital. I was kept the next day until 4pm to complete the Multiple Sleep Latency Tes... Read more

  Posted on 05 July 2013 SELF EXPRESSION

• Summer in Maine

  

  Summer toes, faded beachy colors, grilled drumsticks, bright flavors, happy herb garden, crashing surf, salty hair, and the sounds of Animal Collective, “My... Read more

  Posted on 05 July 2013 SELF EXPRESSION

• Vestiphobia

  All my clothes are too big.  You’d think that would be a fantastic problem to have, in fact I’ve been looking forward to this problem for quite some time. Read more

  Posted on 05 July 2013 SELF EXPRESSION