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LATEST ARTICLES ( 48 )

• Christmas in the Borderlands

  

  This has been the best Christmas I’ve had since I was a child, the best Christmas in more than 15 years. I’ve been able to enjoy making a gingerbread house... Read more

  Posted on 27 December 2013 HEALTH, SELF EXPRESSION

• Internet Elegy

  Some statistics for you: Only 10% of people with eating disorders ever get treatment. Of those, only 1/3 will get treatment at a facility that specializes in... Read more

  Posted on 15 December 2013 HEALTH, SELF EXPRESSION

• I Survived!!

  As of yesterday at 5pm, I completed my first semester of graduate school. I don’t have my grades back (though I’m pretty sure I have an A or A- in everything),... Read more

  Posted on 06 December 2013 HEALTH, SELF EXPRESSION

• On the Verge

  That’s me, according to my counselor: “on the verge of doing some serious growing up.” At first when she said this, I brushed if off, saying, “Well it’s about... Read more

  Posted on 26 November 2013 HEALTH, SELF EXPRESSION

• Oh, F**k

  I just discovered that I can stream (for free!) the exercise videos that I abused most during my ED. Thank you, Amazon Prime!This is actually not where I was... Read more

  Posted on 21 November 2013 HEALTH, SELF EXPRESSION

• 500 Words Or Less

  I have a ton of papers due in the next two weeks and the words just are not coming.So in an effort to save words for those that will be graded, I am attempting... Read more

  Posted on 30 October 2013 HEALTH, SELF EXPRESSION

• You Want to Believe…

  …that there’s one relationship in life that’s beyond betrayal. A relationship that is beyond that kind of hurt. And there isn’t.  –Caleb CarrThere is a feeling... Read more

  Posted on 17 October 2013 HEALTH, SELF EXPRESSION

• You Know It’s A Good Day In Therapy When…

  Your therapist threatens to send you inpatient.  Twice.In response, I attempt [unsuccessfully] to fight back tears because all I can hear is my worst fear:... Read more

  Posted on 08 October 2013 HEALTH, SELF EXPRESSION

• And It All Comes Crashing Down

  Okay, so it’s not entirely crashed down, but this week has been pretty shitty.  And it’s only Wednesday!  At least I’m over the hump, right?The quick recap:... Read more

  Posted on 26 September 2013 HEALTH, SELF EXPRESSION

• The Safety’s On, Right?

  I am feeling all kinds of out of sorts this week.  My self-harm urges have been steadily climbing for the past couple of weeks and have basically hit fever pitc... Read more

  Posted on 21 September 2013 HEALTH, SELF EXPRESSION

• An Explanation (Finally)

  

  So last Sunday’s post left a lot to be explained.  If you missed it, basically it was something like, “I would like to carve up my arms like a Thanksgiving... Read more

  Posted on 15 September 2013 HEALTH, SELF EXPRESSION

• Hold the Phone…

  …you guys are really going to let me be a therapist?!I am constantly amused by this.  And, just as frequently, CONFUSED.  I’m still in weekly therapy myself. Read more

  Posted on 04 September 2013 HEALTH, SELF EXPRESSION

• Meltdown in T-30 Seconds

  Okay, so I’m exaggerating slightly.  However, I am having a small panic attack at the thought of going to a “Welcome Potluck!” that starts in 40 minutes. Read more

  Posted on 18 August 2013 HEALTH, SELF EXPRESSION

• Greetings from the Mountains

  

  I’m sitting in the Student Union of my new University, where I’ll begin work towards my Master’s degree in a mere THREE DAYS!  The syllabi have me quite... Read more

  Posted on 17 August 2013 HEALTH, SELF EXPRESSION

• So What? Now What?

  I’ve been home for just over two weeks.  It has really flown by.  I am actually moving in FOUR DAYS to the city were my graduate school is.  Are my bags... Read more

  Posted on 06 August 2013 HEALTH, SELF EXPRESSION

• The Bionic Hand

  

  I have a real penchant for doing things while in treatment that are likely going to get me kicked out or transferred to a state psychiatric facility. Read more

  Posted on 24 July 2013 HEALTH, MEDICINE, SELF EXPRESSION

• Annnnnnnnnd….we’re Back!

  Has it really been 100 days since I signed my life over to the wonderful staff at Center for Change? In some ways, it has felt like YEARS and in others, it seem... Read more

  Posted on 20 July 2013 HEALTH, SELF EXPRESSION

• Chin Up, Buttercup

  This week has been miserable.  And I’ve only really been making it worse by isolating and staying away from people.  Then, of course, I freak out that... Read more

  Posted on 30 March 2013 HEALTH, SELF EXPRESSION

• 13 Days

  Exactly 2 weeks from this moment, I will be in Utah having just completed my first dinner of treatment.  I will be waiting in line for vitals and anxiously... Read more

  Posted on 28 March 2013 HEALTH, SELF EXPRESSION

• Countdown

  I have an assessment with Center for Change next week. I’d been avoiding the treatment talk as long as possible, always blowing off the possibility when my... Read more

  Posted on 09 March 2013 HEALTH, SELF EXPRESSION