I’ve been slowly learning to look at the positive and to focus on the positive things in my life. Part of doing this is to try to look at the negative experiences and memories in my life and try to replace those memories with GOOD things that revolve around the negative trying really hard to be noticed.
I started truly doing this today and I wanted to share some of them with you.
1) My husband being in a different country is difficult, but it has taught me that I need to be more independent in myself. It’s only when I find myself and love myself that I will be able to love him the way he deserves. I believe this time has definitely put me on the road to self-love and independence, and that satisfies me beyond words.
2) Regardless of all the negative things that surrounded my wedding, I am married to the love of my life, I was able to successfully organize a wedding in a different country all by myself and I still have people complimenting me on aspects of the wedding. I choose to remember the good things about that day – the fantastic cake, the spectacular decor, yummy food and partying with my friends and family till the wee hours of the morning….and of course, seeing my husband waiting for me at the front of the room while walking down the aisle.
3) Regardless of the stress of the arguments and the tension in my family at times, the following things popped into my head and made me smile today:
a) My Mom sitting in the river in Jamaica and grinning her head off – I haven’t seen her that happy in a long time.
b) My Dad looking at my Mom climbing into the river and telling me “look look at how funny her face is going to be…” and then laughing with me when my Mom started looking completely chuffed as the river water soaked her. It’s adorable how he still knows her so well even though they’ve been through so much and have been together so long.
c) Shopping with my little sister and laughing at her Steve Madden shoe addiction – getting along with her better than I ever had even though we were cats and dogs growing up …and even after we grew up. Maybe there is a relationship there?
d) Putting makeup on my older sister at Christmas. We hardly see each other and it was so nice to just do something with her alone for once, especially since I’ve been feeling ridiculously disconnected from her in the last few years.
So my dear readers, what is making you happy these days? What can you twist into the positive in your life?
