Hey guys, I know I’ve been M.I.A for quite some time now, but I needed some time to distance myself from the world and figure out what I want. The title to this blog post should let you in on the thing I’ve figured out and got over on my little disappearing act, over the last couple of months I’ve relocated, worked as a bartender, found a better job doing something I love and the hardest of all….I figured out the person that I was trying so hard to love for so many years was not the right person for me.
Everyone always says when you find the person you’re suppose to spend the rest of your life with you just know, I never had that feeling I just always assumed it was a bunch of nonsense made up by advertising agencies, but for years we were both lying to each other convincing ourselves something that was clearly not working was working. There was the obvious signs that I now I can notice, for example the fact that we could both be in the same room, but it felt like we were on completely different planets or that we did not make an effort to be with each other at all we both did not want to spend time together. The relationship was a convenience, we didn’t have to go into the dating scene and it was just what we got use to.
I’ve never felt this lonely in my entire life, which is a sad thing. Life is short and wasting time on a relationship when you know deep down you’re settling is a huge mistake, but it wasn’t all bad. If it wasn’t for him I would never have become such a strong woman and learnt so much about myself, what I want for the future, what I want in a man and that I realized you can fall in love with the wrong person, but you will always know its not the person for you.
I am back and I am ready to make vegan treats and experience this new chapter of my life. :)
This is a song that helped me deal with everything I hope you guys can take a second of your time to listen to it
The Anti Retro Vinyls – Last day as lovers
Its a beautiful song, Please let me know what you think.
