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The Poetry in the Faded Tulips

By Coreyamaro

Faded flowers

The tulips dried in a vase, bowed softly.

I sat on the edge of the chair finding them more beautiful than when I first bought them.

"Should I toss them out?" French Husband asked.

I shook my head, "They speak poetry to me."

Thankfully, French Husband gets my imagination, he nodded and gave me a gentle look.

Two weeks ago I bought them when an annual check up, a blood test came back slightly skewed.

My doctored advised a MRI to be safe.

Faded flowers

I was anxious. Scared. Worried. I found myself asking and answering in my own conversation. 

"The blood test is off..."

"But I feel fine."

"You felt fine when you had ovarian cancer."

"If I were ill I wouldn't feel this good."

"Remember last time."

My friend Cheryl reminded me, that the old fear was awaken by this scare, and that I was layering on it. "Your past is not your present, believe that."

I tried.

Wilted Tulips

When we are confronted with our own mortality the depth of who we are comes to surface. The meaning of everything sits by our side, and tulips can speak.

I took confidence in the love I saw in French Husband's eyes.

Those dogs that walked along side of me (yesterday's post) spoke volumes.

I waited without layering on to the old fear. It wasn't easy.

Faded flowers

The results were good. But the reminder was powerful.

Flowers fade. Beauty remains.

I don't want to forget that feeling of urgency, the enourmous joy of the moment in front of me, that whatever happens I want to embrace and find beauty in it.

Thankfully I can embrace a good result.

The Poetry in the Faded Tulips
 
The Poetry in the Faded Tulips
 
The Poetry in the Faded Tulips
 
The Poetry in the Faded Tulips
 
The Poetry in the Faded Tulips
 
The Poetry in the Faded Tulips
 

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