Tallulah Willis on Her Eating Disoder: ‘I Did Not Value My Life Or My Body’

Tallulah Willis on her eating disoder: ‘I did not value my life or my body’

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The Willis girls are attention-seekers, they were trouble-makers as teens (a many of us were) and they are definitely the beneficiaries of nepotism. However they also strive to become more self aware, they’re open about their personal struggles, and they have experienced some personal growth recently. After reading these headlines I assumed that Tallulah, 23, was the one who was arrested for using a fake ID a few years ago, and that she got sober after that. That was Scout though. (It’s not that they look so alike that I confuse them, it’s that I honestly don’t pay that much attention to them and tend to forget about them quickly.)
Rumer, the one who arguably gets the most press, recently revealed that she’s six months sober. That is a real achievement, especially at her age of 28. It takes some people many more years of misery to realize that they should not drink. *Raises hand* Now Tallulah has posted an Instagram discussing her eating disorder, her three years of sobriety and how she feels about the time in her life when she was most consumed by an eating disorder. This is not the first time Tallulah has opened up about her eating disorder. She’s also been open about the fact that online bullying hurt her deeply as a teen.

3 years ago I was a malnourished string bean with aches that echoed throughout my soul. However the internal cries to tend my most blistered and deep wounds repeatedly fell on deaf ears. I did not value myself, my life or my body and as such I was constantly punishing for not being enough. Self annihilation fueled with medicating left me a shell, and the world on mute. I was hoisted from my hole, (one so deep I was certain we were nearing the Earths magma core) on the backs of powerful human beings that I will forever be indebted too, and on that day my life was gifted back to me. I love the girl in this picture, I cry for her and I mourn her lost years. She is inside of me always and I must never let her slip too far. I don't push any agenda, I can only speak for my path and staying sober has been far and beyond the most important thing I've done in my wee 23 years.

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That line “I love the girl in this picture, I cry for her and I mourn her lost years” is powerful, it choked me up. Yes the writing is a little overwrought but it still got me. Tallulah’s mom, Demi Moore, struggled with addiction publicly for years. This is daughter of a celebrity in a family where 2/3 of the sisters are sober and talking about it. That makes a difference for people who may be too ashamed or afraid to get help for their addiction and self harm issues. This is also an essay about coming to terms with your identity and learning to love and accept yourself while making those painful attempts to change. We all have our own journeys and issues and this impressed me. I’m not saying that Tallulah and her sisters (whom I lump together, probably unfairly) won’t do more annoying, attention-seeking things, just that this vulnerability and admission does help. There is help if you’re struggling and there’s no shame in it.
This pic is cute!

Xxtreme meat pic by grandma
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