I'm just getting angry all the time now; I feel CUT OFF from whatever everyone else is experiencing. Even though I'm convinced THEY'RE the deluded ones with their contacts hither and yon and their visions of angels and demons alike.I know this is daft, I mean why would you even wanna read this, right? But it's like I've been BANISHED from interaction with the Spritual World or whatever the dimensions, spirit, soul, channeling, mediumship, ghosts, poltergeists, aliens, chakras are. I'm not being allowed to have direct contact with the ethereal realm.
In fact, I've never had ANY DIRECT ((conscious)) CONTACT with this realm.
For me God is just a bad joke foisted upon sheople who deserve to be ruled.
For me Soul is something you listen to on phonograms at 33rpm or 45 rpm.
For me Spirit Guides just don't have the map to my conscious psyche, if they're helping me right now, I can't sense it, never have, there's just an emptiness where 'my spirituality' is supposed to be.
I know there's gonna be THOUSANDS, literally thousands, of You The People out there sceraming at me in all the multi-dimensional ways they can muster, "Mike, you have to open your heart to the reality of spirit!"
Or some such. You can shout all you like. It won't help me.
Believe me, I've tried, to believe, tried to be like you with your messages from beyond and your astro-physical contacts galore. But, there's nothing there, for me. And I'm not just saying this to feel superior. I'm most angry about my inability to see this 'other reality'. I'm angry like a paraplegic might be really angry about the loss or his/her legs or arms or the use of his spine. For me it's bricks and mortar and three score years and ten. Just awaiting my inevitable death some time in the next thirty forty years.
Why this should make me angry, I have no idea. But it seems like just a pointless waste of talent, you know IF WE ALL HAVE IT. Admittedly, I have my dreams which I've documented many times and have allowed to structure the narratives of almost any book I've ever worked on. But that's not a conscious decision on my part, it's about getting a daft image prior to waking and using it like I used to use a random squiggle to create an image when I was a kid passing time drawing with my mom at home.
Why make us not believe or doubt or not know the mechanism of activation? I mean, why hide this shit from us, FOR FUCK'S SAKE?
Why would anyone design a (extra-dimensional) system that is so closed off from the many?
