When I started this blog I was pretty determined to "live out loud" in this space. I wanted this blog to be therapeutic, not only for myself, but for others. I wanted it to be a running commentary on my life and my journey. From this screen I wanted to embody authenticity, vulnerability, and honesty.And I feel that I have accomplished that.
I'm proud of my blog. I'm amazed at the words that flow freely from my heart onto this screen. And I find such peace in coming to this space and just writing.
But others have not necessarily seen it this way. This saddens me.
Some have chalked me up to being narcissistic and wanting everyone to know EVERYTHING about my life.
Others are unhappy with how up front I am about certain taboo topics.
And still others are taking personal offense to the words that I write here.
The words that come forth are not always of my own making, but they are of my own experience. If you find therapy, encouragement, support, strength, or anything else in my words, I am glad. That means that you relate and that you see a part of yourself in my journey. That is what this is about.
Let me be clear though... this blog is not about you. It is about me. If no one were to ever read this blog again, I would still write and I would still grow because of it.
I share my story, my journey, and my experience so that I may fully express the gratitude I have for living this crazy life.
I share my story so that one day I can look back and see how far God has brought me.
I share my story so that you or you or you, may find hope & healing in these words, in my experience.
I don't share it to be voyeuristic. I don't share it to seek attention. I don't share it to rub things in your face. Those reactions are more about what's going on inside of you, then what's happening in my world.
There is therapy here. Intense, life-changing therapy that I receive by doing this. And this is one of the only times in my week that I allow myself to be somewhat selfish without apologizing for it. This blog is my highest form of self-care and I'm so thankful for it.
So, please... react, receive, and reflect on the words that I write, but please don't attack me because of them.
This is my space. All mine.
