Since I last had a spare minute to write, life's loaded me inside a metaphorical cannon and shot me into open space.
Everything's happening so fast.
When I look at my life these days, I see nothing but a smear of color whizzing by.
I see myself flying through stars, sky, clouds.
I hover over green fields and roads into wildness.
It's terrifying and exhilarating and exhausting and inspiring.
***
It's T-minus 19 days until I get the keys to my new house.
It's really happening.
Despite some snags with inspections, the purchase of the house hurtles on. I have my flight reserved. I have a place to stay prior to closing. I've set up a rental cargo van to transport my critters and mother to our new digs.
I'm eating off paper plates and sitting on my hands in disbelief.
***
Mountains of boxes are stacked everywhere.
There's mess and detritus strewn throughout the rental house where I currently live. I busily email and text my new students while I pack and plan, make phone calls and sign papers.
It's been clear for a while now that this era of my life is coming to a close.
For a long time, it didn't feel possible. Or even real.
But the screeching whir of change is here, hacking away at the old life.
I am being sculpted into someone I don't recognize. Still, I realize I know her intimately. She's always been here.
***
Another door opens on a place from my dreams.
Outside, a sun shower, as apples gently drop from a tree.
I dig in the pungent soil and plant seeds in unruly rows. I clip sunflowers.
Light spatters the adobe walls near me.
I have a key on a red ribbon around my neck.
I finally have the key.
I hear a voice that says, "Follow your heart, dear one," as I push the gate open to the back yard, and walk in. It's full of trees and songbirds and light.
***
First, you imagine the change.
Then, you see it.
Then, you start to feel what it would be like to live in that place you imagine.
Then, suddenly, you're there.
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