Have you ever found yourself saying that? About three weeks ago, we were still in New Jersey and Ryan had heard nothing about potential jobs. I hit a breaking point. I burst into tears - afraid, worried, and at a point where I couldn't honestly say "I trust you God" out loud. Why had it been 4 months? Why did every company give false dates of when we would hear something?
Through tears I blurted out, "I just want my mom". In that moment, I thought if I could just see my mom, everything would feel so much better. I wanted her to hug me and I wanted to sob on her shoulder. At that point, I hadn't seen her in 6 months.
Later that week I was talking to a friend, and she mentioned she had just gotten back from a "date night" with her mom. She began to describe the same type of feelings - that there's just something about spending time with your mother that rejuvenates your spirit and encourages you.
It really got me thinking about the fact that I will be that person for Rilynn. The person she comes to, even if she's messed up, and seeks comfort and encouragement from. It's such an emotional bond between a mother and a daughter. And even though there's been points in my life where I wasn't getting along or had no desire to talk to my mom, she was always there to forgive me and take me back with open arms.
My grandmother passed away when my mom was only 34. My mom was the only daughter, and that loss was devastating for her. Now that I am a mother myself, I could not imagine not having my mom in my life. I am constantly calling her or asking her for advice. My mom has admitted that over the years, she reaches for the phone when she has had exciting news - and it's heartbreaking that she can't talk to my grandmother. We find comfort that we know she is heaven and we will see her again - but it still hurts to not be able to enjoy her in our lives now.
I am so grateful that I am blessed to have my mom in my life. She is such a beautiful woman and I could only hope that I can be half the woman she is one day. Watching her bond with Rilynn has been very special and I am so glad I will get to see her a lot more, here in Florida.
“A mother is the truest friend we have, when trials heavy and sudden fall upon us; when adversity takes the place of prosperity; when friends desert us; when trouble thickens around us, still will she cling to us, and endeavor by her kind precepts and counsels to dissipate the clouds of darkness, and cause peace to return to our hearts.” -Washington Irving
