Marriage, soul mate, I am in love again!
When I came back from work, I was surprised to see a
mail in my mailbox, it came as a surprise, as I never get any mail, I get bills
and lots of it. It was a wedding invitation, ‘Sameer weds Parul’. I quickly
called Pooja and enquired whether she got the card or not, apparently she
didn’t. Sameer was a college friend, I didn’t particularly hang out with him,
but he was more of a friend of Pooja’s. He would talk to me just because I was
always with Pooja.
‘Why are you so surprised that he is getting married?’
Pooja asked.
‘Cause I thought he was gay’ I shrieked.
‘You think everyone’s gay’, she sounded disinterested.
‘I do not, and I have reasons to think of him that
way, remember his handshakes’. Sameer was one of those who would shake your
hand and wouldn’t leave till he is over with all of his pleasantries. A man
shouldn’t hug or shake another man’s hand for more than three second, it just
gets awkward.
‘Oh yes, I
remember, he once told me that he found you hot’ she chuckled.
‘Get lost, I will talk to you later, bye’, I
disconnected the call.
Holding the letter in my hand, I went through all that
was written. “In each other, we found our soul mate”, damn it was tacky
but then I started to wonder, how does a person know whether the guy/girl they
are in a relationship with is their respective soul mate.
I called Pooja again and told about the tacky tag line
on the card, we had a laugh about it, but then I asked her, what did she thinks
of all this soul mate business. The answer I got from her wasn’t expected, I
thought she would outright laugh at me for asking such things, but she
believed in the ideology of having a perfect guy, who is just perfect for you.
You are incomplete till you find that person and then everything will become
perfect…perfect…perfect, I actually was feeling nauseated listening to all
the perfects.
I personally don’t like the idea of a single girl who
is just made for me; I have two reasons for it. Firstly that means I am
incomplete till I find her, and secondly what about all the other relationships,
do they become runners-up for my soul mates.
On the wedding day, I was trying on everything in my
closet, just to hide my ugliness. I did finally manage to find an old suit
which made me look halfway decent, and then I took some pictures of myself, self-obsessed,
which reminded me how wrong I was to think I could look anywhere close too
good. I finally gave up trying, and took the car to pick up Pooja. Waiting in
front of her house, my eyes were fixed on the door; she knew I hated this habit
of hers, but God forbid if she would ever be on time. And then the door opened,
wearing a pink saree an angel moved slowly towards me taking small steps. She
had her hair untied, a dark pink blouse and her white skin shone brighter than
the moon that night. It was great that she couldn’t see me inside the car, or
else she could have seen me drooling. I quickly got out of the car to open the
door for her, I could see her surprised, and I was amazed as to how beauty of a
woman has made me a gentleman.
I kept quite all through the ride. I tried catching
glimpses of her every few seconds; she was having trouble managing her saree.
She kept fishing for compliments, and making faces or nodding, as though she
didn’t know that she looked the most beautiful girl in the world.
Upon entering the venue, I surveyed the crowed; no one
even came close to giving Pooja any competition. She looked like the beautiful
lotus one would see, surrounded by mud around her, mud being me. I could see
everyone looking at her as she slowly walked towards the stage, I found it
funny as she was having great trouble walking in that tight saree wrapped
around her. We stood at the start of the stage, where few guest were getting
their pictures taken with the bride and groom. I imagined myself and Pooja on
that stage, wearing a maroon coloured lehenga, standing beside me, and
everybody would be saying that guy is lucky to get a bride as beautiful as her.
I stood there smiling like an idiot, like that could ever be possible.
We congratulated the couple and got our pictures taken
with them. Sameer was giving me a curious look, I think he wanted to know, if I
was dating Pooja or not. I also winked at him and gave a sheepish smile, something
to make him jealous.
‘They both look good together’, she said.
‘Yes they do’ I replied. You would make the most
beautiful bride, marry me.
‘You also
look great tonight, I think that girl in black dress was checking you out’ she
said it with the cutest of smiles.
‘Who me’, I started blushing. Marry me!
‘Do I look
good in this saree?’ she enquired
‘You look amazing’, I replied. She is crazy to ask
such a question, if I was to die right now, I would have a smile on my face,
and how can someone have such an angelic face.
If this was some other day, I would have scanned all
the girls in black dresses, but maybe it was the marriage atmosphere or that
she holding my hand as we walked through the crowd, I was having variety of
feelings in my heart. I could even feel my heart stopped altogether when she
held my hand. We looked like a couple, and nothing could remove the big smile
which was on my face.
The thought of soul mate again popped up in my head.
Could she be the one who will complete me? I always found her attractive and
this was the first time we both were single together, I could only imagine this
as a sign from God.
I started having a conversation with the guy above
‘Hey God, so is she the one for me?’
‘Yes of course, I had already planned this when you
were born’
Yes even my imagination had given me the green signal;
she and I were meant to be together.
We took a zillion pictures of us together that day; of
course she looked great in all of them, I on the other hand must have gotten
one or two pictures in the okay category, those which I can show to my
grandkids without scaring them. I even stopped trying to look good afterwards
and started making funny faces, soon she also joined me and both of us were
laughing like monkeys on cocaine. I was smitten on her, I was ready to be the
purse which was held under her elbow or the plate which she had in her hand, I was
so hypnotised by her beauty that I felt like an insect that gets attracted to
the bright light and flies towards the light.
During the drive back, my head was clouded with
thought of tasting the nectar of those pink lips. I could sense sweat running
through my hair on my forehead. I parked the car in front of her house and
quickly jumped out to open the door for her. She smiled at my antics as she
came out of the car.
‘I had a wonderful time today’ I said.
‘Yes, me too, if this were to be a date, I think, this
can be the best date I had ever been on’ she said.
I was shocked; my mind had started the countdown and
was ready to blow up. What did she mean, ‘if this were to be a date?’. I
wish you were mine, and then we would go on dates like these all the time. I
had to come up with something clever.
‘This was a date, didn’t I tell you, I planned this
marriage just to go out with you’ I smirked. ‘And you know what comes after the
date’, I couldn’t believe I just said that, but I did.
‘So you mean to say a good night kiss?’ she said with
a grin on her face.
I don’t know what came over me; I just closed my eyes,
said a prayer, and leaned forward. I must have blacked out because when I gained consciousness we were
making out. The feeling of touching her lips was like flowers when they bloom,
the scent of the first rain, lying on the ground watching the shooting starts.
When our lips parted, I confessed my love for her; she didn’t reply and walked away.
I did finally have my answer; no, she didn’t say I
love you back to me, but the question regarding soul mates. Yes there might be
a perfect girl for me somewhere in the world, but here is the thing. I am not
travelling anywhere soon, and frankly I feel I am happy right now with the not
so perfect girl who hasn’t replied to my confession of love, and you never
know, she might be my soul mate, I guess a guy unlucky in love as me, has to
get his heart broken a thousand times to finally meet his soul mate.