“She’s got this laugh”, you say, “it’s so contagious. And she’s got this way of being so excited about everything. You two would have been good friends”, you’re talking about your ex.
Sometimes it feels like she’s still a part of you. And you don’t want to let her go. I see messages from her pop up on your phone sometimes. Who am I to say anything, I did come between both of you. I’ve made peace with her place in our relationship. Like a scented candle, subtle but ever present. It’s my price to pay for what I did to her.
But I also know you’ll never go back to her. I know you say you want stability, but what you really crave for is adventure and excitement. I’ve never been a ‘sure thing’ before and maybe that’s what kept you around. I worry now that I’m here, I’ll drive you away. You’re a thrill seeker and I don’t know when you’ll go for your next chase.
“I love you like I’ve never loved someone before”, you said, “I belong to you. Corps et ame”. Those things you said were the reason I got on that plane. But I know better than anyone that talk is cheap.
You’re having drinks with Charlotte from work tonight. She’s sad because she just broke up with her boyfriend. Frenchies need to stick together, you said. Don’t wait up for me, you said.
