A conversation with my sis (basically a much smarter & younger version of me – not to mention with better fashion sense and hair)
Warning: this conversation may be offensive for those who like salapao (Chinese hot buns)
Me: Do you believe that in life, there’s always going to be a person we’ll never get over?
Sis: Of course, but it’s not a bad thing
Me: And what are we meant to do about it?
Sis: Well, different people react differently. Some find ways to be with that person. Others just leave it alone. Some things aren’t meant to happen, you know. It’s like a fantasy in your head, which can be good sometimes. It motivates you.
Me: But what if that fantasy can become a reality? Even for a short time. Would you not want to try? Would you not wonder what it would be like?
Sis: If you know that when that short time is over, you’ll end up in the same place, then why start it?
Me: Because right now it feels like a dream that’s coming true. I want to grab it and have it for a while. Even if it’s going to slip away again.
Sis: Then grab it, if that’s what you want. Just don’t expect anything, you know, so you won’t get hurt.
Me: Hurt is just a feeling though, isn’t it? I mean, what’s the worst that can happen? I will cry and listen to some sad songs. Nothing that hasn’t been done before, right?
Sis: Yeah, but is it worth it?
Me: I don’t know. But if this time it doesn’t hurt me, the next time will anyway right? What’s the difference? Why not just be happy while we can and live in the moment. Otherwise it’s like you’re saying “I’m not gonna eat fries, because it will finish”? Does that mean you won’t even get to enjoy eating?
Sis: This is going on your blog isn’t it
Me: LOL, I’m thinking about it
Sis: Well, you can see it that way too. But, no, it’s more like, do you think fries are worth being fat for?
Me: Hmmm
Sis: And I’m guessing you do. But what about salapao (Chinese hot buns), I don’t think salapao is worth being fat for, do you?
Me: Yeah, why would I even eat salapao?!!
Sis: Exactly. So it depends if he’s a salapao or fries.
Me: (Stunned by her witty statement)
Sis: And you’re making me hungry, I should order some fries.
Me: Yeah, please get inspired and think about what I should write for my blog.
Sis: You do the thinking, I’ll do the eating 
The chat with my sister actually helped me answer the question I’ve had for a while – whether it’s worth starting something that potentially will lead nowhere and get me hurt in the end. And as she very cleverly puts it: ‘it depends if he’s a salapao or fries’.
I don’t have an answer yet. But while I figure it out, I’m keen to know what you guys got from the conversation with my sister 
