I am sitting here on a Sunday morning and the 3 big kids are all still sleeping and the baby is just laying here next to me lounging around being her cuddly bug little self. Love that girl! Anyways, I had clicked off the screen I was on for a second and saw my computer's wallpaper which is this picture:
That's my three oldest taken 1 year 9 months ago on a cruise ship at my cousin's wedding. No we did not go on the cruise, but we got to spend a portion of the day on the ship before it took off. I love that picture! But it's missing a very special little girl who we didn't even know existed at that moment in time.
The picture makes me smile every time I see it because it was such a magical day and look at those faces. They were having so much fun. And gosh, 1 year and 9 months really changed them too. They all look so much more grown up now in comparison. I feel kind of guilty not having a picture like this one which has all 4 of the kids in it as my wallpaper though:
I love this picture too! But I keep the picture of just the three up. I know the baby doesn't notice. And well the wallpaper on our other computer is actually a picture of JUST her. Which certainly the 3 big kids could notice and feel that we are favoring one child over them. Although, they all get a kick out of that picture too.
I look around my living room at the pictures I have hanging and in an entire year I have not managed to put one single picture of the baby on the wall. I haven't even had any professional pictures done of the kids since my son was a baby. My middle daughter takes note of all of the pictures we have on the walls of her older sister too. It's not that the pictures don't exist of her, but I didn't like that years Christmas portraits.
It's hard making everything even when you add more children into the mix. I should probably make a collage of my favorite pictures to set as my computer wallpaper to alleviate the guilt. Although, I'm sure someone would notice there's one more picture of someone than another one. See, no way to make it perfectly even.
Oh well, I guess I'll just leave my computer's wallpaper alone and be happy that the picture brings up so many wonderful memories. And of course not because we didn't know of our little bundle of joy yet, but because it was such a nice day and we had such a nice time together as a family.
Do you ever feel guilty about the pictures you have on display because they don't feature enough of all of your children?