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Freezing The Frame

By Doulalovelou
Lately I've been in a big hurry to get life moving. I'm sick of waiting for love. I'm sick of waiting for my career to take off. I'm sick of all this juggling. It's extremely frustrating to be at this place in life where I'm completely ready to move forward, but God is saying "Wait." Thankfully in all of this frustration and antsy-ness God has been affirming me that He is present in what I consider a delay. His timing is perfect & while I don't see what He's up to at this moment, I take comfort in the fact that hindsight is ALWAYS 20/20. So often in life I've been able to look back after a season of stagnancy or a season of pain & I've been able to see God's hand in it all. It's not always easy to make it through those seasons, but by God's grace it happens.
Because of this antsy feeling I've been walking through the past few months with this intense feeling of anticipation. I keep looking forward to what I want to happen or to what God has for me next... when I should be finding joy in each & every moment, each & every breath. 
This morning I woke up with an attitude of "Ugh. Another day of not getting what I want. Another day of waiting." What a rotten way to think, right? But God was having none of that & within an hour of waking up He snapped me out of it. Later in the morning as I was swimming, I began noticing what a beautiful day it was & what a blessing it was to be able to have 40 minutes of me time. Time stood still as I glided through the water with the sun glistening overhead. Too often I let those moments and those realizations of how God is blessing me, slip by.
But today I allowed myself to freeze the frame of that beautiful moment in the water & it felt so, so good. 
Our days are filled with so much stuff, that it often flies by without any realization of how amazing life is. I'm definitely one to get caught up in the day-to-day monotonies of life and because of that I don't see God in the small moments. But He's here. He is present always & is waiting patiently for me to acknowledge Him and to thank Him for all that He's done.
So today I do. Today I thank Him for this delay, this pause, this transition. I may not be 100% sure of what He's doing. I may not be 100% comfortable with the slowness of pace. I may not be 100% honest with how I feel at this moment. But I will 100% trust Him and I will relish in this time because before I know it things will be moving again. And when they do, my human heart will undoubtedly forget the joy in freezing the frame. But today I'm here. I'm pushing pause & I'm taking a moment to enjoy God's presence in this seemingly small moment. 
I wonder what my view of this moment will be one day in the future... Picture

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