My mom sends me flowers on Valentines Day every year she thinks I don’t know it’s her.
My brother is my favorite guy to hang out with. He knows me better than any guy in the world, and he still loves me.
Someone asked me why I am alone I didn’t know how to answer the question.
All I could say was “I’ve been busy.”
I have had my heart on ‘out of service’ I’ve been doing some renovating and remodeling healing takes time.
Dear you -
I drink the whole french press myself and I’m not sure I want to share.
I’m not a muse. I used to think I was but I’m really not. I’m just a person.
I’m a little picky about what I eat it has to be good quality and taste good otherwise I may refuse to eat it.
I could be called moody I’ve come to find I’m just emotional. I’m artist so don’t take any of it too seriously. Feelings pass usually quickly.
I’m figuring out my life but I haven’t figured it out yet. My ducks are not all in lines and I’d prefer it that way. I’m not going to settle just to make everything look good.
I’m a planner I like to have things planned out like what we’re going to do. It’s not that I’m really all that controlling if things don’t go according to plan I don’t flip. It’s what I didn’t have as a kid so I need it now. I think it usually makes for a better time.
I like to be alone it’s not personal. I don’t like constant stimulation and conversation. I need is steadiness, consistency, peace. This could be considered boring but it’s what’s good. All of this is teaching me longevity and what staying actually looks like.
I’m not going to be a super skinny. I’ve been super skinny but it makes me spacey and cold. I may not be model thin or model anything and I may seem secure and confident in my skin. Some days I am, but some days I’m just not.
I dig travel, adventure, abundance, dreaming, manifesting and I hope you can believe in this stuff with me. The world is my oyster.
I’ll run, rock climb, surf, cycle, board, hike, sky-dive whatever but I am not much of a ‘competitor.’ I may not be able to keep up with you (if you’re fast) and that’s okay I’ll meet you at the bottom and we’ll go get pancakes.
I love to write sticky notes.
I keep busy and it may look like there’s no space for you. But there is.
I’m usually fried by 10 PM I don’t like to be out late because I start to kneel over. I am a morning person, I don’t tend to lie around I like to get up and get things done with the sunrise.
I wear glasses at night and lots of flannel that do not match when it’s cold.
I have trouble sharing a bed with someone. I know I can get over it but it’s hard for me.
I don’t really like dogs, there are a few who have won my heart but I’m not crazy and the slobbering, jumping thing. I still sort of want one so I guess I’m uncertain where I’m at with dogs. That said I love babies and some cats. I love squeezing and taking care of things especially you and me.
I like cleanliness I can’t stand dirtiness and disorganization not knowing where things are and messes. Basic mindfulness.
I believe in the Universe, God, Krishna, the woods, my mat, the snow, flour. Sometimes I don’t want to do anything but feel that because sometimes I get sick of everything else (even you) sometimes I just need to cry not because I’m depressed but because this all must break my heart so that I can mend it back up over and over again.
I won’t ask you do my mending for me.
I get scared and I try to run but I will come back if you wait a few minutes.
K I’m ready now,
me.
