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Body Shaming: The Skinny Version

By Cait @caitscozycorner
Body Shaming: The Skinny Version
I've been struggling to put into words how to really share my own story with this. I've had so many incredible and inspirational blogger friends share their story ( Katie & Ashley )  and journey of finding themselves through weight loss, accepting their weight gain and/or just how happy they are right now. I've shared a few posts about my anxiety, struggle with balancing daily life work, blogging and parenting but I've never really gone into detail about how my own body shaming got me to where I am today, here, at 31 years old.
As some of you know, I was a preemie when I was born. I weighed 2 pounds 2oz and left the hospital in Albany, New York at a hefty 4lbs after being there for 3 months. When I was 1 years old I was 15 pounds ( my 10 month old son currently weighs 23 pounds )! As a child, weight was something that I struggled with not to take off, but put on.
I remember seeing pictures of myself at 3 years old in ballet class. I was so small that my own tights could barely stay on and they slouched at the bottom of where my pink slippers were. In elementary school I was always active, playing with my friends outside, running in soccer practice twice a week but remembering that I felt the most comfortable in large t-shirts and shorts to hide the fact that I was basically sticks and bone.
Body Shaming: The Skinny Version
In middle school kids would tease me about being too skinny. "Don't you eat?" In fact, I did! I ate all the time in fact but it was always a struggle to keep it on. I had a few guy friends who always told me I was pretty but I remember getting into a huge fight with one of my girlfriends at the time because I told her what size jeans I wore ( either a double zero or 0 ) and she called me a liar because no one was really that small and I must be in the bathroom a lot throwing up to make me look so little. I went home and cried for hours because I felt ashamed.
In high school I remember shopping with a friend and she told me we hated shopping with me because I made HER feel self conscious! She was larger boned and I never noticed her weight! I was stunned at how brutal that made me feel that I was being body shammed for being so small. A few boys would even comment how cute my butt would look in certain jeans and that my 4 pack at the time must take me hours to get.
Body Shaming: The Skinny Version
Truth? I never worked out in high school. I'm not saying that to get everyone upset but just stating facts that despite having what others would consider 'the perfect body' I felt alone, upset, terrified and extremely embarrassed of it.
Being a size 00 felt the same as being a size 200. Words hurt. At 31, a Mom of two, a blogger, a writer, a wife, friend, coworker..etc, words still hurt. Just recently I was on my Instagram Stories sharing an outfit I had fallen in love with and someone DMed me saying I was "too skinny and needed to eat".
Body Shaming: The Skinny Version
Huh?! I have 2 kids? I have that pooch you guys! I have stretch marks! I have cellulite. I have it all friends! But ya know what- at 31 body shaming has taught me this. I LOVE MYSELF. That's right. It taught me the opposite of being ashamed. I'm still wearing baggy t-shirts because I'm comfortable in clothes like that but I'm also loving to wear outfits that make me feel good inside and out. Outfits that hug my small frame, that make me feel confident and that make me say "WOW, I look great!"
My tribe of friends love me for my size- ( I'm a size 4 and have been for about 15 years..minus being pregnant and putting 65 lbs on ). I'm not ashamed of it anymore. I'm not consistently working out to get to a size 0 again. I embrace my stretch marks and my cellulite because of what my body went through by having two children. I embrace it all!
Let's start by teaching our children, our friends, our family and our coworkers that body shaming needs to end! Let's teach everyone to embrace our flaws because they make us who we are! It takes time to love yourself and at 31, I'm slowly getting there too. It's ok. It always is.
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