If you're reading this, you've likely thought that the world would be a better place without you. A single line of text, glowing in the darkness of the internet. Written by Ashley Lutin, who has often thought that, and worse, in the years since his wife died and his young son disappeared. But the peace of the grave is not for Ashley-it's for those he can help. Ashley Lutin has constructed a peculiar ritual for those whose desire to die is at war with their yearning to live a better life.
Struggling to overcome his never-ending grief, one night Ashley connects with Jinx, who spins a tale both revolting and fascinating. This begins a relationship that traps the men in a tightening spiral of painful revelations, where long-hidden secrets are dragged, kicking and screaming, into the light. Only through pain can we find healing. Only through death can we find life.
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At dark, I become loathsome. (CHAPTER ONE)
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(@TitanBooks, 28 January 2025, 175 pages, ARC from the publisher via @NetGalley)
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I'm a huge fan of the author so At Dark I Become Loathsome was a must read for me. Like his other work, I found this beautiful and strange and disquieting. I didn't want to stop reading wondering what would happen between Ashley and Jinx and if Ashley would ever find out what happened to his son. This is a scant book, more of a novella really but felt like something much longer. This is a gripping, engrossing read. I'd recommend it if you like books that are sinister, strange and beautiful.
