"God it'd be really awesome if you did this and it'd be really awesome if I got this and it'd be really awesome if you'd follow my plan."Sometimes my prayers are so selfish and sometimes they're just silly. But mostly my prayers show that I really don't trust God as much as I think I do.
If I trusted God the way He wants me to, I'd let Him decide. I'd willingly blow up the box I tend to put Him in and into such tiny pieces that I'd never be able to put it back together.
God does not want to be in a box. He doesn't need to be in a box. Because His power, His love, and all that He is cannot be contained. He's proved that time and again.
Even though I put Him there He always shows me that by putting Him in a box I'm trying to limit Him and trying to keep hold of control. And He always lets me know that it's a pointless feat.
Despite my distrust and my battle with letting go of and then regaining control, He always shows me just how small my box is. He always proves to me that my dreams are tiny compared to His ability and what He can actually do. He constantly surprises me.
Even though things might seem awesome in my dreams and even though I'd really, really like to dictate what my life looks like, He knows better. And He reminds me of that in a gentle and faithful way. Because of His faithfulness I'm learning not to limit Him. I'm slowly learning to blow up the box, day by day. I'm trying to approach each day with a heart full of expectation for ALL that He can do.
