Packing started earlier this weekI threw everything in to my caseBut when I saw how neatly my Mum and sister packed I took everything out againAnd started freshI also did a cull of my clothesAs I had everything but the kitchen sink in there I'm a terrible packerI always bring far too many clothesI bring clothes I haven't worn in years You know Just in case Better to be safe than sorry I guess
I was in the doctors waiting room this morning And there was a girl in there with a really cool hair cut Her hair was shaved like mine Except on both sidesSo the hair in the middle was like a small MohawkI am seriously considering getting it done when I come back I just have such an urge to do something drastic with my lookSomething totally different for meI guess I am playing around with my lol for a few months now I just want to experiment And change my lookFor so long I concentrated on my weightIt was my be all and end allBut now I want to be defined by something other than my weight In a moment sadism I went to weigh myself the other dayBut to my delight My scale wasn't workingDo I have no earthly clue what my weight is And you know what?I have absolutely no shit to giveNot one iota And it feels great
I was trying on clothes for my holidayDresses and skirts and tops I am slowly but surely finding out how to dress my shape in the best wayAnd developing my own styleIt's great the way you can play around with clothes And find out what suits For TurkeyI am bringing lots of skirts and light trousers As well as a couple of dressesWhile trying on clothes I was able to see what looks good on meWhat is not so good And was able to do all this without having a major meltdown about how I lookThat my friends Is progress
I had to get a letter from my doctor this morningTo say that I will be carrying 448mls of methadoneIt's a controlled drugAnd it's also in liquid forms so they always check itBut I have been all around the world with my medsAnd have never had a problemI was homeAnd putting my letter in my hand bagWhen I found a letter from last when I went to the UKI was surprised to see that I was on ten mls less of methadone back thenThat is a distinct lack of progress And is in fact going backwardsIt makes me wonder will I ever come off this drugAnd the thing isI would be perfectly happy to stay on it for the rest of my lifeOnce an addictAlways an addict
I'm assuming I can blog from Turkey I will keep you all updated And of course supply you with many many photos
