Sometimes when you give someone the benefit of the doubt, they take advantage of your goodness.
Sometimes when you give someone the benefit of the doubt, they take your heart and rip it to shreds over and over again.
Sometimes when you give someone the benefit of the doubt, they truly didn’t deserve it in the first place and they make you feel a fool all over again.
You may remember my posts:
- Apparently I’m Still Haunted
- Stand By Your Man
- I Love You But…
Well I’m sad to say, some people just don’t learn their lesson.
This time last year I was at rock bottom. My marriage had fell apart because of a coward of a man. I gave this man, whom I swore to stick by in sickness and in death, a second chance to prove himself worthy of my love.
Guess What?
He proved himself unworthy again.
I received a telling phone call with actual proof of his betrayal again. What is even worse is, when I confronted him via phone right after I received the disappointing phone call, he LIED to me AGAIN! I even gave him a second chance on the phone to “man up” and tell me the truth, yet to no avail.
Why Do People Lie?
Simply, they are COWARDS.
But I’m alright with this. I’ve tried to cry about it but I have no tears. I now know the problem is not ME and that it is HIM. This man who I married is not worthy of my love, my loyalty, nor my devotion and I told him just that.
This man does not see what is wrong with him contacting an ex-lover, whom might I add is the same ex-lover whom he was divorcing me for next year.
This man sees this bitch as a friend and one he should be allowed to talk to or text; yet knowing I and the bitch’s husband have forbidden it.
This man is heartless to do what he did knowing how traumatic it was for me the first time.
This man is a pathological liar and coward.
This bitch is also a pathological liar and coward so maybe it’s a match made in heaven.
But I’m Alright With This
No devastation.
No crying.
No threats.
Now is when I say, “It’s time to take care of me! It’s time to get my ducks in a row because it will happen again.”
Now is when I say, “You are not worthy of me!”
Now is when I say, “Let the cards fall where they may for I have a backup plan that does not include you.”
I Asked For Guidance
I took a moment and prayed to my Mother in Heaven and asked her for guidance.
I asked her to help show me the way and guide me to what I must do.
I asked her to give me the strength to do what must be done between now and my future.
I asked her why this was happening to me? Was it because I led the wrong path in my younger days? Is this payback for being the “other woman”?
Then It Hit Me
I know exactly what I must do for ME. It may take some time and some planning but I know what I must do. It may not be the path some would take but it is the path for me for I deserve someone who is worthy of my love, my loyalty, and my devotion.
I am a Survivor and I will not lose this time.
I am Stronger for I have been preparing for about a year now without letting my defenses down.
I have given the benefit of the doubt only to have it thrown in my face…….. for the very last time.
Here’s to the Survivor’s of the World and to those who don’t settle for less.
Seek for Guidance and it will come.
God Bless.
