Honey, Holidays and Huge Amounts of Gratitude

Today is Thursday
And my working week is finished I work Sunday 12pm-8pmMonday 8pm-4pmAnd Tuesday 8-4pm24 hours a weekWhich is niceI am really enjoying work I can feel my confidence boosting And my general well being is very goodIt's a great feeling to know that I am working Earning moneyOut and about in the world meeting new peopleI especially love that I am helping people enjoy a much needed break awayI love that our center makes a difference in people's livesA lot of that is down to my manager She is an amazing personJust 40 years old She has been running the holiday center and the old people's home beside it for the last 12 yearsShe really sets the tone in the houseShe is efficient yet friendly Firm but fairHard working but always has time to chatShe is a fantastic role modelAnd I admire her greatly She always takes the time to ask me how my Dad isAnd also how I'm feeling with my low confidence and self esteemIt really is the perfect place to re introduce myself back in to the working world And of course it's brilliant to have a few extra pounds in my pocketIn September I am treating my Mam to a little holidayI will go horse ridingAnd Mal will potter around and relax in the hotelSo that's something to look forward toI can't wait!
In other news Honey is going back to the vet on Saturday About her remaining eye that looks cloudy and blood shotShe has already been to the vet hereBut she sent me home with no answers and told to just wait and seeAnd charged me €40 for the privilege So we are going back to the vet who removed her eye three years agoAs he is the best of the bestHoney is okIf a bit crankyBut we are just worried that she will lose the eye she hasI mean I don't know if a dog can live a comfortable life with no eyesI guess I would have to keep her inside And she would need a lot of supportBut I would be willing to do that if it meant she gets to stay around Lea is also having a check up tooEven though they are both old ladies nowI feel sure they have a few years left in themThey have literally been by my side for the past 12 yearsI can't imaging life without themThey bring so much life to our houseI feel safer and calmer knowing they are thereThey are fantastic company tooI just love them so much And dread the day that I don't bring them home
What else?I'm still going to my doctor every weekThis morning my usual doctor was away So I saw 'Nice Woman Doctor'She is lovely Told me she had listened to my radio interview And had also read some of my blogI felt a bit naked when she said thisAs I forget that I was on local radioTalking about something so personalShe was lovely thoughAnd told me there was a huge change in meThere is I guessBoth physically and mentally and emotionally I have moved on from the sick, addicted lonely girl that I was And am living my life in a way I never have in my whole life
Even though I have been through so much in my time
I feel extremely blessed to have the life I have
I am well and healthy
I live with my Man who I love dearly
And we get on great
I have amazing brothers and sisters
Two dogs and a pony who I adore
I am in a good place
Have great friends
I am lucky to have a job I love
Hobbies that feed my soul
My life is far from perfect
And I am no poster girl for recovery
But I am now happy and content with what I have
I want for nothing
And I believe my family and friends would move heaven and earth to help me
The past couple of weeks
Cocos owner has been avoiding me
Not answering my calls or texts
So yesterday I decided to phone him from my Mams phone
And lo and behold he answered
I was pretty annoyed and I let him know so
He told me that he's very busy with work and couldnt be dusty
What alias of old shit