Falling in Every Sense of the Word

I'm making a concerted effort to blog more
So here I am There is so much going on at the moment Coco and trying to care for himI start work in two weeks which I'm very anxious about My Dads health isn't great He was recently diagnosed with Motor Neuron Disease And he spends a lot of time staying with usAs you may know my parents are separatedSo that makes for interesting dynamicsAs well as all that I did something really stupid on Monday I was over in the field with Coco and his owner We had just brought Coco for a walk down the lane And were back in the field Cocos owner suggested that I get up on his back And Miss Easily Led over here decided that was a good ideaHe gave me a leg up And I was on his backHe was ok for a few seconds Then he seemed to spook and bucked and I came offI landed on my right side and hopped my head off the ground I waited to feel painBut all I could feel was utter shock I knelt on the ground with my head on my knees hoping I had done no damage But I was okThe only thing that was hurt was my pride So as you can imagine I am feeling rather stupid I woke up the next morning with pain all down my right sideBut it's easing and no permanent damage was done I went riding yesterday And told my trainer what had happened She was pretty gobsmacked that I could be so stupid She is also encouraging me to step back from the whole Coco situation It's tough because I have built up a relationship with the pony And he's become part of my day Part of my life Part of my little animal family So to walk away would break my heart It really would But my being thrown off was solely my fault And his owners faultAfter the fallI had to get on the back of a motor bike To be brought back to my carAnd then drove the half hour home Which now that I think about it was pretty stupidI could have had concussion or worseCould have blacked outI've had different reactions from everyone I've told Some are shocked Some think it's all part of looking after a pony Some think I should back offThe thing is though That Coco has come on so much recently He's a different pony to the one I met back in January I just need to slow down a bit As you may know I am a person of extremes All or nothing I go from zero to 100 in jig time So maybe I just need to put the brakes on And pace myself a bit 
In other news My anxiety at the moment is really effecting my food and my appetite Which is bad as with all the activity I'm doing I need energy It's just very hard to eat when your stomach is in knots And your head is a mess of negative thoughts I'm hoping that once I start work The anxiety will ease And things will level out Hopefully I don't know about you But I find social media quite anxiety provoking tooI use FB and a particular FB groupAnd every time I post I am worrying what people thinkWhat will they say?I mostly get positive feedback But there is always one person who can be on the nasty side But I guess that's what you get when you put your life out there for others to see and judgeYou have to take the rough with the smooth
AnywayI hope y'all are doing okI hope your week is going better than mine..