Carrying on

Daddy's family always held Christmas either the weekend before or the weekend after December 25. When they heard about Alyssa's death, they offered to reschedule our Christmas celebration. I declined.

We spent a lot of time crying during Christmas and the days after. I wanted to see everyone and talk/think about something other than the black cloud hanging over all of us. We drove to the family Christmas ready to have some fun. We had a fun dinner and the kids opened presents. We told stories and laughed and enjoyed ourselves. 

The reality is that life does go on. It hurts in ways I never thought possible, but we have to get up and move forward every day.