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• Eleven Weeks

  My mother died 11-weeks ago today. I don’t think about her or her death death everyday. In fact, large gaps of time go by when she/it doesn’t enter my... Read more

  Posted on 07 June 2021 SELF EXPRESSION

• A Motherless Mother’s Day

  My mother’s been gone for seven weeks now. It feels longer. I’m not sure whether that’s a good thing or a bad thing or just part of the continuing process of... Read more

  Posted on 09 May 2021 SELF EXPRESSION

• Add nausea…..Um, Really.

  As I type, there are less than two hours left of Thursday, April 22, 2021, which means my day of days, my birthday is about to draw to a close. Read more

  Posted on 23 April 2021 SELF EXPRESSION

• Death Will Kill Ya

  Dammit, I didn’t want to be THAT person who can’t shake the death of her mother. I am, but it’s not for normal reasons. It’s deeply painful to admit there was n... Read more

  Posted on 16 April 2021 SELF EXPRESSION

• I Need To Bitch

  And when it comes to incurring my wrath, tag you’re it.My mother has now been dead for three weeks. Ester Sunday, was the first major holiday without her and... Read more

  Posted on 10 April 2021 SELF EXPRESSION

• A Different Kind of Love Story

  Franz Kafka is considered by many to be one of the world’s most influential authors to have ever taken a quill in hand. I’d love to say I’m fully aware of... Read more

  Posted on 05 April 2021 SELF EXPRESSION

• Timing

  

  I have hazy memories of Easter week. I seem to recall we regarded it with excitement because cousins were coming and a hunt for brightly colored eggs, tons of... Read more

  Posted on 30 March 2021 SELF EXPRESSION

• Untitled

  A week ago today, my mother died and within a few hours, my home was filled with family. They stayed for a week. Ordinarily, I can only tolerate hosting 48 to 5... Read more

  Posted on 28 March 2021 SELF EXPRESSION

• The Alpha and The Omega

  

  Timing really is everything. You make an arbitrary decision to turn left for reasons you can’t explain, and you pass by a shop you feel compelled to enter.... Read more

  Posted on 22 March 2021 SELF EXPRESSION

• As She Leaves

  Dementia. It’s a cruel disease. It creates such a bizarre and unfair grieving process….add to that a four inch bleed from a hemorrhagic stroke all fighting for... Read more

  Posted on 17 March 2021 SELF EXPRESSION

• Bad/Sad Days….& Nights

  Insomnia is my middle name. I spent about 32 years in broadcasting, most of them in Houston. Working in a major market is the goal, but it comes at a cost. I... Read more

  Posted on 25 January 2021 SELF EXPRESSION

• What Is It I Feel?

  I don’t know…..other than a total disregard for the entire year that was 2020 and so far, I’m not exactly loving 2021, a mere 22 days into the new year. Read more

  Posted on 23 January 2021 SELF EXPRESSION

• Where I Stand

  

  And where, some might argue, is on the precipice of being heralded if you agree with me, chastised if you don’t.  That said, the level of fear surrounding... Read more

  Posted on 31 July 2020 SELF EXPRESSION

• What We Need

  It’s summer in a Texas.   Yes, of course, it’s summer everywhere, except in Australia and in any other country sharing its hemisphere.   But here, South... Read more

  Posted on 28 July 2020 SELF EXPRESSION

• Equality/Inequality

  Don’t get me wrong—inequality is real. Sometimes, it’s practiced, by either intentional or subconscious means. It’s also a convenient buzz word that certain... Read more

  Posted on 29 June 2020 SELF EXPRESSION

• I Have Trypophobia

  

  It’s a fear, if you will, of clusters or groupings of irregular holes.   You’ll find it discussed on a Reddit, on Creepy Pasta and other social forums. Read more

  Posted on 10 May 2020 SELF EXPRESSION

• Figuring It All Out

  When and if we ever get the chance once again to socialize miles away from our homes outside the safety of virus quashing sunlight, while standing or sitting... Read more

  Posted on 07 May 2020 SELF EXPRESSION

• My Pandemic Learning Curve

  

  I decided a few weeks ago, shortly after the start of my mandatory exile to my own private Elba in the Texas Hill Country, that the next few weeks or months of... Read more

  Posted on 15 April 2020 SELF EXPRESSION

• What Isolation Really Feels Like

  

  Are you like me?If you are, then you’re also growing very, very tired of worrying.   I worry if my almost 61 years on this planet will be easily snuffed out by... Read more

  Posted on 15 April 2020 SELF EXPRESSION

• Hello

  

  Not in an Adele way.     Certainly not in a Lionel Ritchie way.    Just a greeting.   At this point in time, it’s all I can offer.On Wednesday, a mere 48 hours... Read more

  Posted on 13 April 2020 SELF EXPRESSION